Rules >> Obedience << Repeat = Love

Looks good doesn't it? Even the acronym - RORL.

That is how I envision my ideal life partner to be.

Someone whose bosom heaves in excitement at the sound of her man's command. Because obedience runs deep in her blood, due to her childhood trauma - a strict upbringing that made her so OR had too much freedom growing up which made her crave imposed discipline and control, (or let's go with that trite umbrella tag of "daddy issues" used for every girl who seeks a dominant/ older guy).

Either way, you just want to have your man, be in-charge of you, as if you would suddenly be in free-fall, if you lost his control on you.

Just to clarify now, it is not the control that seeks to abuse, exploit or turn toxic. It is the control that seeks to mould and nurture you into your man's perfect submissive woman, that no other woman can be. The control that seeks to make you his very own custom fit for life, as if he created you from his imagination - same as man created his Gods.

I am referring to myself in the third person because I fucking hate doing the first person/ I/ me. It just feels like I am advertising myself or something.

You are someone who fantasizes every waking hour of yours, a union with such a man; to belong to him, to become his prized possession, his masterpiece, his 'property' (that's what 'Peeky Blinders' said).

You crave his word in everything you do, long for his opinion and suggestions in everything about you - how you do your hair, how you dress/ what outfits you wear, how you groom yourself down there, how you look/ what shape you are in, what you cook for him, how you please him, seeking his abundant validation, attention and praise, giving him assurances in return that you are his, will always be his, no matter what, that you cannot imagine a life without him.

You don't want kids, you have your reasons and he has his. It is better this way, to fully devote yourself to him and have him devote himself to you.

You are an adaptive personality, just like he is. Which means you adapt to the things he loves, his interests and passion for things. You absolutely love watching him be passionate about things, it makes your knees weak and pussy moist, listening to him narrate his ideas and philosophy to you, whenever he wanders off in conversation, prominently displaying his ADHD.

You are fully onboard with the idea of 'free-use' and 'CNC' and whatever the hell else he wants to do with you. You just cannot say 'NO' to him. Not because you aren't supposed to, but because you just want to be his 'YES to ALL'. Because he makes you feel so safe and comfortable, as if you are a little girl and he is your daddy. Cliche shit that is. Let's try again - as if you are a butterfly and he is the breeze. A butterfly is never afraid of the breeze, now is it?

You are also fully onboard with how hyper-sexual he is, because you are just as horny all the time too and you are like a little puppy just waiting to play anytime anywhere. Waiting for him to throw the ball and you instantly go fetch it. Only with him, the 'ball' is his verbal command or a gesture beckoning you near and your 'fetching' is, you dropping whatever you are doing, going straight to him and ready to play. He is a very reasonable man though, so you never have to worry about obeying him in situations where you would risk any personal loss. But obey you must, unconditionally. It is your willingness that matters the most. It cannot be in doubt. It is like being on-call for your man. Trusting him with using you without causing any discomfort.

You are not at all fussy about sleep, because you love being taken advantage of even in your sleep. You crave your man's touch and even sleep is secondary to his touch. You don't care where he touches you, what he puts inside you - fingers, toys, his cock - when you are asleep. Because again, you are the butterfly and he is the breeze, you are not afraid of him and you trust him.

This is really turning out to be free-association writing, but I will keep going. It takes me hours to make 1 post, but I mean every word I type.

The thing about being adaptive, is also that you love to learn from your man, adapt to his nuances and quirks and preferences, because you find it so fucking cute to blend yourself with him. One of the biggest things you must adapt to, is his compulsion to know everything/ ask endless questions. And because you absolutely love being asked about anything, your past life, childhood, anything at all, because you feel like he truly cares about you and so he asks so much, you are more than happy to answer all his questions to his satisfaction, even going as far as to double check if he is satisfied with your answer or if he would like you to attempt again. You just love letting him guide and direct you. You need it because it makes you feel so close to him. You love learning new things from him and giving him your ideas as an offering, playfully offering him your knowledge, seeking his validation and praise. And he is someone who truly values knowledge and creativity, ideas and perspectives. So you feel obligated to share with him and share everything with him.

The other thing you truly aspire to adapt to, is his need for equal effort - in interaction, either textual or on the phone. It bothers him when there is no symmetry in things, even abstract. So you make it your own diligence to provide symmetry in everything you two do together. Never leaving him feeling one-sided.

Finally, you are so passionate about being your man's perfect woman, that you take seriously, everything he lays out for you to take heed and practice. You make his word your duty. He says "strip", you strip. He says "never do that again", you really never ever do that again. He says "I need you to remember this....", you write it down if you must.

Ultimately, for all your obedience and submission, what you will get from this man in return, is an obsessive abundance of love and affection that you have never dreamed of.

There is plenty more I have to say, but I will save it for when you contact me after you fully see yourself in this post of mine.

Here are some rules to help you self-assess, if you are a sub like none other.......

1. Contact me ONLY if you can chat without any distractions/ multitasking. I treat a chat, like it is a video call, complete attention, nothing else going on around.
2. The chat cannot be a slow-ass-one-line-per-half-hour chat. When you come to chat, you must be only in chat with me. Because I do the same. Has to be 'Instant Chat', like the good old Yahoo/ Hotmail days.
3. Every time you step away from the chat, you must excuse yourself saying - brb. Just think of it as a video call, you wouldn't just jump out of the frame, without saying, right?
4. Read my pinned post on my profile. There is plenty more there for you to read.

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Thank you for reading, at all. I don't expect I tickled anybody's pubes, but I just had to make this post for my sanity sake. But if anyone does come through, it will be a miracle!