Hi. I'm a 42 year old former master who fell in love with a submissive still discovering herself 10 years ago. She discovered she's a domme, a dom breaker more specifically, that loves dominant men the same way that lions love zebras. I lost the power struggle that followed, and I'm very happy with how that turned out, but I do miss being able to express my dominant side.

We also moved countries, about a year ago, and I feel disconnected from the people I have met here so far. I constantly have to mask in this upper middle class liberal suburban community. I'm a kinky lower class leftist, neurodivergent, creative, intense, but tend to be shy at first. There is a big heart underneath the social anxiety, and a bunch of hypersexuality packed in with my treasured collection of disorders. I've been diagnosed as bipolar-2, I'm somewhere on the spectrum, and keeping busy doing a lot of trauma recovery work. My biggest struggle is adhd. If you know, you know.

I'm bi, and in my case that means I'm attracted to femininity. I'm not attracted to machismo. Your gender is secondary to your personality. I like warm, kind hearted people, romantics, idealists, creatives. Whatever your kink is, it's ok, I don't judge.

The way dom space works for me is that it its born out of a connection. I need to get to know someone, before I know where I want to take them, and what I want to do depends on who they are, and where I want to take them, mentally.

My partner and I met in the mind fuckers group on fetlife, and it's an apt description for both of us, I think.

What I am looking for is someone that can write more than in single lines, is interested in something ethically non-monogamous , either online or in the northern jersey area. Someone who would be willing to give time time, to see where things might go.

Emotional sadism is one of my major limits as a dom. If you really want to feel bad about yourself, if you're looking for genuine emotional distress, I'm not your guy. I can find what I want being either indulgent, or demanding, praising or degrading. I enjoy being sadistic, up until a point. I conceptualize it as pink and dark bdsm, and other than the emotional sadism aspect, either speed works for me.

If you think that might work for you, let me know :)