Hello everyone, I’ve made a few posts here in the last couple of weeks. Those posts largely dealt with ddlg/mdlg, and I was very interested in pursuing a dynamic like that. Well, after many potential partners I finally found someone who I felt comfortable with, I felt safe and welcome to delve into that little space… and I didn’t like it! So for the last few days I’ve reflected on what I want from these posts. Is it just a dopamine hit to see people actually want to talk to me? Is it to find friendship or connection? Or is it to find someone who truly wants to help me learn and explore myself sexually and emotionally too. I wish I had a clear answer, but I think I’m starting to figure out it’s closer to my final thought.

So tonight/today (whenever you read this) I’m looking for someone who first I can connect with. I want to discuss hobbies and get a general feel of your personality and interests. I can’t feel comfortable getting into a submissive place if I don’t feel comfortable with you as a person. That doesn’t mean you’re a bad person or uninteresting, it just means we didn’t vibe right. I’d like to hear a few of your kinks and sexual interests too, but that shouldn’t be the sole focus of what we talk about.

I should give you an idea of what I’m generally interested in, I’ll start sexually since that’s where it’ll be the most… ramble like of this section. I’ve come to learn that I definitely like submission and feeling a loss of control. I think I like a softer dom/domme, someone who I voluntarily give that power up to. I want to feel loved, comforted, safe. That’s not to say I never want rough play, but largely I’d like someone who can be a protector and look after me. I’ve been making posts in other subreddits and learning about kinks more. I like the idea of you helping me learn and explore more there too. One weird thing I’ve discovered is I have a sort of oral fixation, I really get caught up on that sort of kink.

I’ll be quick with some hobbies so this post isn’t an essay. I love movies, I watch old movies, new releases, musicals, horrors, so many! I love soccer and tennis, both watching and playing. I like watching other sports but not as much as those two. I love drawing, I’m not good at it but I do love to do it. I’ve been into cooking for a while, I can’t do it while I’m at school, but it’s been a hobby for a few years.

Oh yeah I should explain who I am too! My name is Mizuki, you can call me Michelle if it’s easier. I’m a Canadian born Japanese girl (my Japanese isn’t very good!) I’m going to school in a city and I’m admittedly a very lonely person. I do suffer from anxiety and it has been pretty bad the last few years. I’m pretty good at masking it but it’s been a barrier to a successful social life.

If you have any questions please send me a message. I do prefer messages to my inbox and not chats, but I accept either. My ideal partner is someone who is confident and caring. I don’t care how old you are (so long as you’re 18 or older of course). Just be respectful and I’ll do my best to get to your message and give you a reply! Also, as long as this post is up I’m still accepting new messages!

By the way, this is going to be online only. I’m not really in an emotional state to do real life things yet.

P.S. If you have previously messaged me, please feel free to message again, I might have just missed your message. Hopefully we connect!