Bisexual 23 F looking for either master/mistress or both to own and take control of me.

SFW info about me: I’m a master’s students, majoring in translation studies. My hobbies aren’t numerous but I like to occasionally play video games, binge watch tv shows and I absolutely love horror movies. I mostly like to spend my time indoors. I also enjoy cooking and baking, as well as reading. Appearance wise I’m 170cm and weight 68kg. I’m on a weight loss journey with my weight goal being 59 kg. I’ve got shoulder length auburn (dyed) hair, brown eyes and olive skin.

NSFW: what I’m looking for is very specific. I want someone older and with experience, as I’m quite inexperienced.

This person has to be a sadist and really into humiliation. I don’t wish to be treated as a human being. I want to be made to refer to myself only using pronoun “it” and to be constantly in a state of discomfort/pain.

I want to have my privileges stripped away from until I’m left with nothing. I want this person to mentally break me and make me feel like a useless object if it wasn’t for their guidance. Again, I don’t want to be treated as a human being. I want to be forced to eat things that I hate, or all my food has to be tasteless from the moment I become theirs.

One of my fantasies is to be starved by my owner until I’m a weeping mess begging to be fed anything. I’d like to try that.

The person that I’m looking for has to be very strict concerning food intake, as I’ve already mentioned above, I want to lose weight. So I want them to take over the reins for me and decide what’s best for me to lose weight.

Another thing that I really want to try is to be completely denied. Even to edge, or touch my cunt. I’ve been experimenting with this for a month and it’s pure torture. I just watch porn and feel myself get soaked but can do nothing about it but rub my legs in hopes of getting some relief. I haven’t touched my cunt in a month.

Another fantasy that I have with this one is to be anal only, as I’m unable to even edge from anal.

There are some other things that I’ve always fantasized about but the thought of actually doing them scares me; like piss play, and toilet play, but I do eventually want to do these things, they may just take more time and some easing into.

My kinks include: TPE, long term orgasm denial ( keep me denied as long as possible, no matter how much I beg), edging, nipple torture, anal, breath play, bladder control, diet control, forniphilia, predicament bondage, gagging, deep throating, slapping, punching, feet torture, feet worship, water boarding, chem play(hot sauce, toothpaste)…. I’m open to trying new things too.

Limits: blood, scat, needles, permanent damage, CNC, age play, anything public/ illegal.

PS, if this caught your attention and you want to talk, just know that I will not be sending pictures anytime soon.

Also, please note that I said I’m looking for someone Older!

If this caught your attention please reply with a lengthy message similar to this post. It’ll show that you’re actually interested in pursuing a dynamic. 💋