Hello there. I’m a closet male sub that is stepping out for the first time and looking to give up control for a week or so. I’ve been into various kinks for most of my life, but it’s something my wife is not interested in. To be fair: I love her, an I’ve managed to get her to try a few things, but she’s pretty vanilla and won’t have it any other way. I’m the head of the household and main breadwinner, and it is a weight that I really need to put down every once in a while. I have a deep need to be able to give up control - this is a desire that has been unfulfilled for a LONG time. She and the kids are out of out of town for a couple of weeks and this is probably my only chance to get it out of my system for a while.

What I’m proposing is to give away control (within limits) for a week-long daily regimen (instructions, challenges, tasks, punishments, etc) to let my submissive side loose and bend to someone else’ whim. I’d prefer someone who can also have fun and a sense of humor (I have a bit of a dark one myself with some clever wit and an appreciation for irony) and it not just be screaming at me while she breaks me in and even encourage me to push my limits a bit. This would need to be online and semi-anonymously - I’m not ready to show my whole face or much personal info yet. This is big step for me and while I’m determined to go though with this, I’m still feeling my way through it emotionally. Also, I am employed full time during the week, and am not immediately available during those hours to do as I wish. Please respect that this is my livelihood and I cannot do things that would endanger it.

As for limits, here they are:

Hard Limits: - Blood/Scat - Needles/blades - Permanent damage or markings - Excessive CBT - Public exhibition - Findom

Soft Limits: - Urine - Massive/rough anal - Urethral insertion - Hair removal - Pictures/video

Likes/Interests: - Post-Orgasm Torture - Forced orgasms (including multi-orgasm non-stop torture) - Edging - Cum eating (haven’t been able to work up the motivation to do it solo, but I think I could if I was held accountable by someone) - Forced feminization/Sissification (private/concealed) - Light anal - Chastity play - Predicament situations (choose your pain/pleasure) - Subverting expectations - Being having my mind and body toyed with - Creative tasks/goals

Supplies: - Bed cuffs (wrists and ankles) - Riding Crop - Prostate massager (with remote) - Vibrator wand - Various butt plugs - Enema kit - Chastity cage (soft silicon) - Condoms - Dildos (small to med-large with suction cups) - Cock rings - Clothespins

If there is someone willing to give me a try, I would be happy to serve.