If you're looking for a live in. Read this all and look no further

I am a lot of things. But none of that matters. Because I am a slave. I am not into roleplay, it's very frustrating. I am a virgin with only one encounter with a domme. I hadn't any interest or desire to be dominated before I met her. I changed the instant I saw her. Our experience together has left my eyes open to what I truly desire. Subservience. Most of my pleasures were given into by her, she enjoyed making me feel good. This involved a lot of impact play and other pains I really enjoyed. But it frustrated me because I wanted something more... at the time I couldn't quite put my finger on it. After reflecting it was the lack of servitude. She was really good at degrading me. Calling me objectify names. But it was all aimed at my arousal. Not something I crave. I enjoy it, it's damn near impossible to not, but I only want to be of use, to please my owner.

I am sure there are many men on here or anywhere that will say whatever to get what they want... I am really not like this. I am not concerned or driven by my own interest and this is something I've known my whole life. The times I was most happy or most upset were when I did something for or to someone. I only feel worth in my ability to provide or be useful. But I am in a place where I feel worthless. So while I say I'm not doing this for me, I suppose it's only partly true. I may be inexperienced, but I understand the depth of being a 24/7 live in slave. It is simply my desire to be at someone's whim entirely. To have no control over myself is what I need. I would love so much to be a slave even without rewards or punishments (most punishments I'd enjoy, you would need to be creative, I know some methods of punishment that are effective on me) however, I shouldn't ever need punishment. Maybe at the beginning during training. Aside from that my complete goal is to always do as you say and wish and learn how to be such an obedient well trained slave that I can predict your needs. I want to know you so well I can cater to your desires like a sixth sense. I don't wish our relationship to depend on you telling me what to do every day. Just enough consistency and communication in the beginning for me to learn.

I have no problem with any kinks. I don't care the depth of pain, shame, disgust or humiliation you wish to put me through. All I desire is that I make you happy through my subservience. All I require is effective training. I'm pretty smart. But I'm also extremely foolish sometimes. So clear direction is a must and nothing can ever be expected as a given. You must lay everything out for me.

Being a 24/7 live in, a true slave, it's a big responsibility and I understand it fully. You as the owner must understand the depth of your responsibility as well. Know what it means to have a living being as yours to control and facilitate. It's a lot harder to be a owner than it is to be a slave. It's why there are so many slaves and not so many owners. But there are a lot of non truly subservient slaves, it's hard to see me for who I am because of that. But I really am the rare individual who could be your perfect slave and make your life easier and more enjoyable.