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I realise that giving up control to fast overwhelmes me i think due to my autism, it makes me wanna run from it but also not having the mental knowledge that im owned makes me feel bored so i know i need to find a middle.
Ive tried so hard to just leave this alone. Go and find a nice vanilla relationship and pretend i dont crave to be owned. But I can't because this side is a part of me.
I know also that i need someone sadistic, someone who will keep me uncomfortable in pain. Pain to a certain degree helps me stay in headspace. I also need someone from the uk or similar timezones.
I do want to be seen as a toy but i wanna take it slowly and slowly give up control. I wanna be able to get my brat self under control as well and hopefully in a few months I'll hang off of your every word.
I'll be a cunt that does nothing without it's owners permission. I want it so i dont feel the lack of control i have over time and that way hopefully i dont get overwhelmed with it. That's not to say that i still wanna be talked down to from the beginning i think.
Kinks . Bondage . Hypnosis . Dehumanisation . Degradation . Humiliation . TPE . Pet play . Pain
Limit's
. Nothing in holes apart from mouth due to autism .no blackmail/ expsoure to friends and family . No face pictures . No video or phone calls . No pussy play during periods . No permanent marks . Nothing illegal, no incest, scat or blood play . Nothing public
Added information: . I live with my family so i have to be careful . I work a five day week . Days off change each week . Free or days off and most evenings
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