Relationships have always been the hardest part of life for me. I am great with people — my whole job (I'm a counselor) is talking to people. I form connections easily, and have many close, deep friendships. I have banter and conversation with strangers at coffee shops all the time. I'm a great listener and can get on with just about anyone. But when it comes to intimate relationships, I feel completely out of my depths.I struggle to be myself. To express my thoughts, feelings, and needs. It's not that I'm trying to be dishonest or deceptive ... there's a level to which we all put our best foot forward when dating someone new ... but I feel like I need a lot of help to get to a place of freedom, acceptance, and ease. I need a partner who is okay being actively engaged and attentive to this. Someone who is open to supporting me through this, and collaborating with me to find solutions. I don't expect that my struggles with anxiety need to become your responsibility - just that I want someone I can be honest about this with, and that they're willing to work with me on it.I have a hard time communicating when I am overwhelmed or anxious. I need someone who is okay pressing me a bit, and encouraging me to share. I also struggle with self-esteem around my body. I know I have a nice body based on how the world treats me, but I don't always feel that way myself. I would really appreciate a partner who wants to help me feel more confident, and bring forward that primal side. Who wants to form a bond so close and loving, that we can totally explore all our depraved fantasies together.I'm posting on this SubReddit because I believe my needs are a match for this type of dynamic. Someone who would perhaps even enjoy the level of dependency and neediness I feel, and want to be in that role. I crave the mix of possessiveness, protection, love, and depravity. Someone who wants me so much he wants no barriers, to afford me no privacy. To know every insecure, filthy thought in my pretty little head. I want a relationship that is disgustingly close, where we are each other's world. To shower together talking about our days, you wandering by to grope me while I'm reading, me always knowing what foods to pick up for you at the store.In my day to day life, I am responsible, take great care of myself, and have fulfilling relationships and hobbies. I have good qualities, but I'll wait for you to learn those on your own. I'm happy to start online, but want in person sooner rather than later and am open to relocating. I am monogamous, please only reach out if you are single and available for that. Thank you for reading :)