Everyone seems to spill their deepest, darkest wishes here, so I will try and see what this gets me.

If I were king of the universe and could make my own story, it will look something like what I'm going to describe.

Since my woman, my sub, slave, babygirl or whatever roles she wears with pride rests so centrally to the overall of what I want, I'll describe her first.

She's a feminine woman. No sharp edges or brashness about her personality. She's just pleasant to be around, lifts my spirits 10 degrees just for walking in the door. She's body and weigh proportionate. She has an uncanny ability to know what's going on with me. She craves attention and affection. She's lucky because I have endless time on my hands and a desire to devote that time to her. She want to know that she's loved, valued and appreciated by me. And I work to make sure it's the case. She's fun to be around. I just.... like her. I like going out to eat, chatting and making up stories about people passing by. You may wonder if this is a romance seek or a post on the BDSM personals. This perfect girl is a slave. She knows I value subs who aren't slaves, but for her, she feels slave in her blood. It's not about servitude with her, it's not about being used for pleasure. She is expressing who she IS, the summit of what makes her feel happy and fulfilled. Service, use, training, protocols, rituals, use, community kink events.... these are the blocks that make up her interests, but to snuggle beside me at the end of the day and know that she made a happy home for us, and to feel proud of herself, content and happy in her life and her role... This is the perfect woman for me.

The environment - I'm retired young. In the process of divorce but don't hold it against me. I'm moving forward with my life. I have a lot to offer to the woman who shares it with me. I'm 56 but get told I look 40's. You judge. I have one pic on my profile and more available on request. I have enough life left in me to have one more epic relationship. I live in Texas now, but I don't know about staying here for a length of time. Nothing I have to decide anytime soon. My house is comfortable and roomy. I want to eventually buy a house with a full finished basement to convert into a dungeon/play room. Room for growth, if that's something this perfect girl is interested in. (Yes, I mean a family someday). Wow, everything keeps coming back to me wanting to describe this girl more...

She is smart. She can talk about most anything with intelligence. She's not a rocket scientist but she's interesting and knows a lot of different stuff. Oh, and she hates politics and never wants to hear about or discuss it. Bleh!

She is skilled and practiced in her service. She knows and values her protocols and rituals and executes them without thinking about them. She's eager to learn ways to be good at what she does. She talks with other subs and slaves and maintains friendships. She calls her mom and her sister and visits on occasion. She's not repressed or hidden away.

When her service is required in play, she is eager, willing, wanton and free. She trusts me to lead her through an experience, to use her body like an instrument. Whether applying pleasure or pain, she submits, knowing that our emotional bonds get stronger with each time we exchange power from her to me. She wants to feel a thrill of fear over the realization of how far she has fallen into me. She wants to feel trapped, physically and emotionally, unable (unwilling) to trade her life for any other situation.

**Throws it in the digital ocean*