In the end, it does. Having chemistry is the start of it all. We have to think on the same wavelength and have some things in common to start. I've had both submissive and Dominant experiences, to say I'm a switch might be too much though. I like the power struggle but if I'm Dominant over a man, it's short-lived and for my pleasure as opposed to his enjoyment.

I've had all the uninterrupted, free time I wanted to determine how my future should develop. Yet, I couldn't come up with anything. It feels wrong for that decision to be in myhands. This could sound like an exaggeration and might raise some eyebrows into a disbelieving scoff. Some people are different. I've come to that conclusion. I've had submissive, self-sacrificing and serving tendencies since I could remember. At some point, you aren't trying to be obedient, you just are. To be raised and have it enforced to the point that it feels strange to rebel and choose your own path, that's a different level of discomfort. It's not harmful. Ironically, it's taught me how to choose a dominant that's suited for me. If I were to compare the situation, it would be like outgrowing your bike. You have the knowledge of riding, the next bike you ride would have to be appropriate for your height and weight, otherwise you won't get far.

I know the type of submissive I am. My limits are forced masturbation and orgasm denial. Orgasms aren't the motivating factor you think they are, at least not to me. Having mastered regular denial of my wants and needs, the restriction or promotion of sexual stimulation and release fails to bring a reaction out of me. I've tried it, even more so following masturbation instructions, it does nothing but turn me off. Using orgasms for praise? Ineffective. Toys, anal and fingering are another limit. This'll leave most Dominants speechless, I'm sure.

What spurs me on? Mental stimulation. For me, it starts in the mind. Confidence, know-how, authority and capability beyond the sexual. I should feel your aura instead of you telling me I should submit to you. It's not anything instant either, it should feel comfortable to us both. It's nothing complicated either, simple back and forth on here that relies on our intensity. Know that I'm not asking anything more of you and if you're looking for more in return, continue onto the next ad to save us both the time.

I have not tried following rules or a schedule yet. I don't like feeling confined. Of course, I have been and managed fine but the thought of something rigid and unforgiving being put in place, and knowing that I don't have a choice but to follow it makes me panic. I'm disobedient without even knowing what it is. Rules can be good and I follow them already, I figured I'd mention this in advance. I have to want to listen to you before you try to give me a laundry list. You should be sensible and reliable. I don't want someone scary or cruel. Firm, someone that commands respect would be better. That's the type of dominant I respond well too.

I feel like a dry-erase board. Full of remnants, aspects of my personality rising to the surface before being wiped entirely. Art was my first love. I'm creative by nature and logical by nurture. It's an uncomfortable and ineffective combination. I like listening to music, watching video games, reading, writing and thinking. I've conditioned myself to skip dinner for a length of time. Leads to my interest in bimbofication. Was into the hyper femme but I got bored of it, didn't see the point anymore. Any other questions? Send me a message and don't forget to introduce yourself with "emerald" if you're content with an online dynamic.