My desires ebb and flow. You'll find that in my post history. We all have itches that we find ourselves needing to scratch, as we continue to develop ourselves, discover more of what we enjoy. I like to explore my desires, at least talking through them, and sometimes I learn best by doing. All that to say, I'm not always entirely sure what I am looking for. But if I were to be honest with myself, what I always look for is a connection. A spark. Chemistry. That turmoil in my belly as I check for messages. Smiling to myself. Feeling those butterflies come to life. They're fleeting emotions sometimes. They tend to stick around for a while, like a flame, as long as we are feeding it. Eventually the fire dies. The fire will always die. Thats why we should enjoy the warmth while we've got this fire going. Cuddle under the moonlight and enjoy the present for what it is.

I'm posting here, so I am kinky and you probably are too and even that is becoming as easy to find as a one night stand. But neither are very significant without the right connection. Without building a little bit of that trust to push past the surface level. Yes, we all enjoy sex, we've all taken a BDSM test. We've all got check boxes to check off and things to cross that we'd never do. I'm not trying to find someone that necessarily checks all of those kinky boxes, I want something much more profound that. I want a person, to paint lovely pictures with their words, to make me ponder my current state, to suggest things I might not otherwise do.

I recently read several writings by a friend who is a little. She made them just before she met her current partner and talks about finding that special Daddy for her. They made me well up, because I associated with that feeling of wanting to be taken care of. In an emotional sense, someone to divulge all my internal struggles to, who will also degrade me until I cum.

A Daddy that is kind but is also passionate and primal. Can rub my head, or pull my hair. Caress my cheek, or slap me. In an emotional sense. Someone to guide, give direction. Put me in my place when I'm being bratty.

It's almost hard to describe all the nuances. It's almost like it's a "mood" or a "vibe". A Daddy vibe. I am not even entirely sure what I'm talking about anymore or if this Personals ad is actually more of a journal entry than a search.

I just want something that is low key. We don't have to be each others everything. I am ENM. It doesn't have to last forever. It doesn't even have to last a week. I don't want you to control my outfits, but maybe you can control my lovense today. I don't want to start with the end in mind. I just want to feel. I want the gentle flow of the river to carry me downstream.

I want a Daddy who likes chatting when he's free, and is free often enough. Who is verbose, intelligent, and thoughtful. Maybe even someone who knows just what a little girl needs. A Daddy's intuition. We don't have to get into the depths of our day to day, I just want you to get in my dirty mind and make pretty things. I want a Daddy whose shadow I can play in. A Daddy who is also the monster under my bed.

There's plenty about me on my profile...if yours is blank, please introduce yourself a little bit with some basics.

I'd like to provide some thought provoking question to reach out to me with, but that feels counter intuitive. Tell me what you feel. Does your soul ache? Are you happy?