my pious hopes to find and please my owner are ever-growing. i need, not just want, a Dominant to save me from my impotence. i am an entirely dependent sub, my adequacy rests on my Dom’s shoulders and my pleasure is in his hands. my inability to make myself useful at this present point of my existence is a waking nightmare. so, for adopting the burden of my ownership and freeing me from my futility, i will repay him with infinite affection, domestic servitude and sexual satisfaction. i understand i am asking a lot, so for balance i will be offering a lot too. complete and total submission to my Dominant. i hope to give him all my time, my energy, and my physical form, to do with whatever he wills. i have a few stipulations, but largely i am flexible, open to ideas and like to be pushed and challenged in my boundaries and taken out of my comfort zone.
so, i should properly introduce myself. hello! my name is Malakia. i am 21 years old and from the United Kingdom. i have been interested in BDSM from an inappropriate age (thanks to unsupervised internet access) and since i’ve become an adult, have been pursuing a rather extreme TPE dynamic with emphasises on abuse, domestic servitude, religious-play, subjugation and pet-play. i have zero real-life experience, both in kink and with sexuality in general, but i am well versed in bdsm and i think i have a good understanding of what i’d enjoy. being embarrassingly traditional, i have thought myself to have been “saving” my virginity for my Dom. i understand why this would put you off, but i find that many men appreciate this. i would like my perception of sexuality to be entirely shaped by you.
my ideal dynamic is a 24/7, live-in, dynamic where i get to take care of you, all your chores, and your sexual desires. though my kinks are largely non-sexual, i do have a very high sex drive and am very open to letting you do whatever sick things you desire. i am a kinky little minx, if you can’t tell. i am also quite the extreme masochist, with a insatiable lust for cruelty.
my favourite kind of cruelty is emotional abuse. i would like to casually be talked down to, with constant reminders of my inferiority. please could you call very rude names (including slurs like f*ggot and b*tch), and make fun of and insult my ideas, even if you like them. maybe we could even designate sone time every day for routine berating where you highlight all of my flaws, both mental and physical. i particularly enjoy being mocked in a patronising, often infantilising way. saying things like “aww, did that hurt?” when you whip me or pour hot wax over my sensitive areas. i love my suffering to be downplayed, and i especially enjoy when doms can gaslight me into thinking their abuse is my fault, even having me apologetic for being hurt.
as for physical abuse, i will ask for lots. a daily beating if practical, multiple if possible. i want to be struck with your hands as well as various instruments, like canes, whips, belts and switches. i crave constant casual physical harassment, such as pinching my bum while i prepare food, trip me up as i’m walking past, groping, that sort of thing. i would like you to manhandle me, push me around, drag me about. tear my clothes off, spit in my face, hit me in the groin. just take your frustrations out on me in whatever way you fancy. the peak of your physical assault will be in bed. i want lovemaking to be permanently associated with suffering. it’s hard to imagine sex where i’m not being slapped, strangled and spat on.
i am very open to ideas and like to try new things, so it would probably be easier to list my hard limits than all my kinks. i can’t do anything that involves consuming human waste, sorry. i know that will put a lot of you off so i apologise. sounding is another hard limit that i’m really not open to. i wouldn’t like to be completely “encased” but being trapped in a small space such as a closet appeals to me. i’ve always wanted to be tied up in the trunk of someone’s car. it’s just the vacuum pack kind of bondage that scares me. finally, i can’t dom anyone else, and i’m exclusively bottom, the idea of putting my penis in someone makes me shudder. other than that i’m totally open and up for trying anything. oh, also this isn’t kink related but i’m really not a fan of being “spoiled”. i’m not a brat and don’t want princess treatment, i don’t want gifts or mollycoddling, just head-pats and vocal praise when i’m a good boy. i’d also prefer to give aftercare rather than receive.
i think i am quite a romantic sub. i have silly but very strong desires to do fun, lovey-dovey things with my dom, like have a picnic by a lake, share a bottle of wine and curl up in his lap as we watch a movie together. i feel this treatment may contradict my desire to be unequal, so maybe these activities will be reserved for when i’ve behaved particularly well. it’s largely up to you. i’d like to keep a picture of him in my cage and possibly even take a worn garment of his into my bed so i can bury my nose in his scent as i drift off to sleep. i would also like to write him poetry about how much i love him and how happy he makes me. i will admire you almost to a fault. i have gotten told off before for (unintentionally) framing every conversation to be about how great my dom is. he just fills up my heart and mind until he’s all i can think about.
i consider myself monogamous, so once i have a dom i am not interested in anyone else other than them, both submissively and sexually. however, if you are interested in making me serve your friends as individuals or as a group, i will oblige. i don’t require you to remain faithful to me, and in fact i will encourage you to sleep with other people. this will make me very jealous, but will ultimately motivate me.
i don’t mind what my Dom’s physical appearance is, or what he likes to do outside of kink and romance, but there are some qualities that will guarantee my attraction to him. the first and largest being Ego. i already consider part of my duty to be inflate and indulge my Master’s ego, but i would appreciate if he already had a strong base for me to build on. secondly i am sapiosexual, so the thing that will turn me on more than anything is intelligence. i love well spoken doms with a deep understanding of BDSM. finally, you need to be mean. sadism and cruelty will make me fall head over heels for you, which is what i’m hoping for.
if you read this far, thank you! i hope we get to talk soon. i would really appreciate if you checked out my profile before DM’ing me as that would be the quickest and easiest way to find out more information about me to help decide if i’m suitable. i’m UK based but hoping to relocate. oh and i have autism, but other than that my brain is okay, i don’t have any history of mood disorders or severe trauma. in case the extremity of my kinks made you question that. but anyway, thank you so much for your time, and i hope we can cultivate a fruitful relationship out of this.