Hello I'm a 31 year old male looking to become a 24/7 torture slave for a truly sadistic mistress. I have schizoafective disorder depressive type and a history of reactive attachment disorder. Basically I have morbid delusional thoughts every day about how I should be severely and brutally tortured at the unforgiving hands of a mistress. I've been exploring these thoughts for over 10 years and because I had reactive attachment disorder as a child I yearn to give up complete control of my mind and body to a mistress who will torture me for hours daily. I absolutely love the idea of screaming and crying and whimpering while a mistress whips me with a metal cane or flogger until I'm covered in bloody bruises. I want to be beat up and electrocuted for the slightest mistake as torture so that I learn to think and act exactly as you teach me to. I want to be trained to worship you like a goddess and never question what you make me or tell me to do and think. Eventually I want to become a mindless torture slave that sleeps tied up in a cage or chained to the wall every night and is severely tortured every day. I will learn to submit entirely to your wishes and will also crawl around on all fours in pet bondage and drink and eat out of a dog bowl. I'm not into scat but I would definitely like to drink piss everyday as a way to be humiliated. I'm also into heavy degradation and humiliation and will be willing to wear a collar with a leash on both my neck and cock at all times. I will never expect any sex so I'm happy to have my cock and balls locked up indefinitely and never be allowed to cum. I'm also into begging for your forgiveness while I'm being tortured for making any and all mistakes. I want to be broken down piece by piece until there is nothing left but a mindless worshipping torture slave.