Hi there, this will be a long post. I would appreciate if you read it all.

What I’m Looking For:

So I want to be clear I am not looking for a purely sexual relationship. I really want to find that person who is my soulmate. I want someone I can spend a lifetime with, where our love endures and grows stronger with each passing year. I want to look at my person at 90 and be able to say this person has been by my side through everything. In all of life’s up and downs.

In this relationship, I want 24/7 TPE. In this I want her to be my goddess and to be able to worship her. I would dedicate my life to serving her and making her happy forever :) it’s all I want. She would own my heart, body and soul. I wouldn’t be my own person x. She would be in control of everything in our relationship and in my life. Even down to what I wear, eat, where we live etc. I would like my opinion to be taken into account sometimes , but ultimately everything is up to her.

We would build up to this. Once I know you’re the one I will totally submit to you.

About Me

Sfw side

I’m a INTJ 5w4 and personality wise, I’m like 2 different people lol.

One part me is like the most sweet and friendliest person lol. Like you'd think I'm probably the nicest person you ever met lol. I'm really affectionate. Physically and with words. I love hugs, and will always tell people close to me how much they mean to me. I am a huge hopeless romantic. I love romantic cheesy gestures lol. I am really goofy, loud and give crackhead energy when I am comfortable with someone. My humor is broken lol, and I also have a really dark humor. I try to be nonjudgmental and positive. I am extremely supportive, I would be there for you through any and everything.

The other part of me is basically the opposite lol. Very overly logical person, can come off insensitive sometimes. Cynical and misanthropic. Strongly opinionated about a lot of things. Can be moody. Like I said I am extremely friendly… until I get upset and literally a switch flips lol. I can be really quiet and reserved, especially when first meeting people.

I’m a contradiction but I love that about myself lol.

Important tidbits. * I have a huge fear of abandonment and anxious attachment style. * I can be EXTREMELY clingy and obsessive when I fall for someone, I’m really looking for that person for my world to revolve around XD. * I’m a huge germophobe. * I am left leaning on most things. * Strictly Monogamous * Agnostic atheist. * I get attached fast, and like to move very fast as well. Just being honest. I’ve very intense and passionate. * I have BPD, I’m sure it’s obvious from other things I said lol.

Looks wise: I’m black, 5’2, very much a stud/masc. I have very short hair and present pretty masculine. I’m questioning gender at the moment tbh. And I’m BBW/plus sized but I am losing weight, already lost 40 pounds. I’m proud of how things are going, but it’s a long way to go still.

nsfw side So I want to be honest and say that I am particularly inexperienced lol. I’m still a virgin tbh. I wanted to wait to be able to share myself with the right person. I need someone understanding and will let me be able to explore to find my likes, pain limit and etc. I have a lot of interests I’m not really wanting to put in this post XD. But I can say that I am very willing to learn to be the best sub for you and open to I think most things. There might be other things, but the only limits I can think of at the moment is scat and non monogamy/cuckquean stuff and age play. These are hard nos.

I try to be very obedient. But I want to say because of how strongly opinionated I am, I can be extremely bratty. This is something I think you should discipline out of me. I deserve punishments when I am being bratty.

Who I’m looking For:

I am into fem leaning women. No masc 4 masc I’m sorry XD, but other than that I don’t care what you look like. I care about you as a person.

I would like someone that is very affectionate, and will want to spend want to spend a lot of time with me. My world will revolve around you so, I want as much time with you as possible. I need someone who can give caregiver vibes, I want to put my life into the hands of some who wants the best for me. Someone who can be nurturing and loving. But I also want you to be strict. And specifically in the bedroom, I want someone who is definitely willing to inflict pain to say the least lol. So basically sort of soft but strict dom outside of bed, but hard dom in the bed lol. I would like you to be already experienced, so you’d be able to teach me things.

On a sfw note. I would very much appreciate someone who can be patient and understanding of things like my anxious attachment and BPD etc.

Race doesn’t matter, and for age 21 For location. I’d relocate for you, depending on where you are from. I’d go to most places in Europe for example.

That’s it. Thank you for reading this long post lol If you’re interested please message me with a little about you. 💛