Hi there,

First off I'd highly prefer for you to read through my entire post before responding. Knowing myself, I'll throw down loads of words to try to get across how I actually feel, so if you read this and think 'no, psari22, don't tell me what to do, fek off' then well.. Ok if that happens you're probably not reading anymore anyway, so that works out fine actually.

So. On to the meat of the post, shall we? As this subreddits' description aptly says, I'm in search of a kinky partner. In my own interpretation of what that means to me, I'm looking for a romantic partner that is naturally Dominant in a similar way that I'm naturally submissive. Seperating my romantic feelings from my submissive ones is not something I'm willing to try, nor do I think its very possible. I prefer my potential partner to work similarly, or to be open for a romantic connection as well. That said, I don't want to force that connection whatsoever. This is something that builds up naturally in my experience. Something to enjoy as it happens, not something to fabricate based on how it 'should be' and try to act out.

'But psari22, what do you mean "naturally"?' I hear you ask. Well, dear reader, we have a conversation with some banter (i.e. don't give me that 'what are your hobbies, favourite colour, food, music' interview type questions). We banter and laugh together, see if there's a click. If there is, we'll want to talk again. As that continues, our interest in each other will grow, and things like hobbies and favourites will turn into things we will learn about each other throughout our fun filled conversations. Or our interest in each other doesn't grow, and then we respectfully part ways.

Oh, let me throw in a quick disclaimer here, the things I'm saying are meant to be interpreted as how it works for me. I don't mean to imply it works like this for everyone, nor do I mean to imply my way is in any way, shape, or form 'better' than other people's ways. All I mean is that this is the way it works for me. And maybe (hopefully) for you too?

'Ehh okay, psari22, that sounds lovely, but why are you posting on this here subreddit?'. Very good question, reader, very good question. I'm assuming you already caught me saying I'm submissive earlier in this text, but for the less eagle eyed readers and other interested parties I'll elaborate on that a bit further. I'm submissive. I've known this for a long time, and I have really never been interested in the vanilla side of sex. As I've matured, I have come to realise that my submissive nature is not only sexual. If anything, the sexual side builds on the initially established psychological side of things. I don't consider myself a slave, though. I am not looking to be submissive to somebody 24/7. I do, however, want aspects of a dynamic to shine through outside of the bedroom. I'd like them to appear before we ever enter the bedroom, as I consider it to be part of my personality, not a role I play sometimes when I'm turned on. As mentioned earlier, I do not want to seperate my romantic from my submissive feelings. Those two topics are bidirectionally connected, i.e. if I have a crush, or feelings for you, I'll feel submissive to you. Other way around too, if I feel submissvie towards you, that's a good indicator that at the very least a crush is going on. This also means that it doesn't just happen right away. I've used demisexual to describe my romantic side, but in the end I'm not entirely sure if I want a name for how it works for me.

Get back on the topic, psari22. Submissive, yes, looking for a Dominant partner, yes. My submissive side craves safety. Communication is very important for this, as well as creating a space to be able to openly communicate. This is ofcourse true for both you and me. I don't really want to provide a kinklist here, but I do want to say that I am a masochist. I prefer to find somebody who is a sadist, as I want to explore this side further and I wouldn't want to ask anyone to inflict pain when they're uncomfortable or not interested in that. I may not express it very openly, but when all is said and done and the safety and sexual interest has grown, I am quite the kinkster. For now, we can get into the other aspects when we've clicked and fostered that environment in which we can feel safe expressing our (non)sexual D/s sides.

So far I've talked a lot about what I want and how I see things. Let's discuss some organizational/logistics/maybe more superficial aspects as well. So, as I am looking to find somebody to essentially maybe at some point fall in love with, I would love for you to live closeby. This can be the Netherlands or possibly the west of Germany. I would want to explore kinks and cuddle and do all of the things that just aren't possible online. Furthermore, I prefer to use Discord if we ever manage to leave Reddit chat/dm's for contact. Do you use discord too? Lastly, I am a tall (180cm) and heavy (big number kg) woman. If this is not your jam, that is totally fine! I just want to keep the expectations realistic. I prefer a tall Dominant, in the sense that they're my height or taller. While I feel superficial for having this preference, I have it nonetheless. The same goes for age, I prefer my age or older, with a cap at around 35.

Alright I've written a lot more than I thought I would, and I would have written a lot more than this to satiate my need to be sound and complete in my request. This is, however, impossible, so this will have to do for now.

Ok, no, one last thing. We are (probably) all busy people with busy schedules. I am slowly going to bed soon(ish), only to face a busy busy long long day tomorrow. If you decide to respond, please don't be angry if I don't respond right this day or the next. Oh don't let me dictate your feelings, you can be angry if I don't respond right away but please don't spew it at me.

So, does any of this resonate with you? With anyone? Are you out there for me? Let me know please. Maybe add 'jellyfish' to your post as a little indicator for me that there are people out there who stuck with me through this entire post. Am I a hypocrite for being too lazy to proofread this post? Okay after writing that I skimmed/read it anyway, so I'm a semi-hypocrite at most. Now I'll prest post for realsies. See you on the other side chaps!