I think every man says this at some point. Mostly at their adolescent stages, but here's what I think.

I have always enjoyed the peace that comes with older women. I am experienced but at the time, I was always involved with other things, I never experienced it for the joy it uniquely is. I always tried to accelerate the time and always hesitated when it came to progressing the relationship when 'breeding' was involved and considered dangerous if not impossible.

As hindsight goes, I regret it and wish for it and even yyearn for it to some degree. I should have seen the fulfilling way an older woman satisfied me and taken it day by day. But I won't scare you off if you are reading, what i will say is what I would want.

I would want a flirtatious relationship. Not the 'checking you out when you pick something up'. But truly appreciating you as you are. Admiring you. Wanting to touch you. Your knowledge of my crave for your body. Being natural with your body, overly indulgent in its way and its shape, but not speaking about it so much, but more ACTING on it. Holding your belly in my hands while we make love, accepting you, wanting to be deeper inside you. I've never liked the over the top, having to tell you how good you look, I want you to catch me looking at you. Let you feel young again knowing that I am eyeing you and wanting to get my hobbies and chores done so we can lay together and just feel.

I would want a sex-filled relationship. If you've read my other 'breeding' post, you'll see that I don't take sex in the typical 'pump and dump' type of stuff. I want to know you THROUGH sex. YOU are the pleasure, sex is just the mode. I picture strange and unromantic sex sometimes with you. Laying in bed before settling and just saying 'want to have sex?' - again, not a proposition to feel good, but more just a 'come closer, you're too far on that side of the bed'. I want you to be able to roll on top, no questions asked. Raw when entering, and just enjoying the pleasure of being one. I imagine moving in with you or spending most nights with you like this. Something scandalous, sure, but intimate in its completion and definitiveness. I want to have access to you and be able to express myself to you through straight up affection through the vehicle of sex - although, vehicle sex is a must ;)

I want to have a peaceful relationship. Part of the reason why is simply, even at 26, I was always done with drama. I am completely alone without friends as unnecessary conflict arises out of it, having to choose their side in an argument I no less told them to not be apart of. I feel like a chess piece. But I want to be able to confide in you and you only. I always picture you watching over my shoulder when I do work from home or when I draw or write poems. Knowing that I have a fire in me and knowing I want to put said fire inside you whenever you want me. I've always wanted something to look forward to when I come home. Always ready to have sex or touch or eat with or eat in silence but the simple nearness is enough.

I know this sub is a massive filth dump, but I hate conforming. I want an older woman or two to express my desires to, to express my dreams to, and to just enjoy some time with and enjoy a notion of safety, sex, and salaciousness about the world around us while we make love in our little corner of paradise.

If I made sense here, by all means let me know how soft and caring you are and let me be one with you in any measure.

Please respond. I love you.