Chapter one...

About vanilla me:

I love good books, good films, and good food. Current grad student. 5’5, slightly curvy (145lb), and Black, with dark brown eyes, shoulder length curly hair and glasses. Last week, two girls cornered me at an event to gush about my boobs so blushes you know. I love to laugh. I love to walk. I love to read and be read, and be read to (all three distinct things). I’m not much of a cook, but I’ve been told I’m a great assist in the kitchen (washing dishes, entertaining the chef (you?), etc.) I have my own place. I love pets, picnics, and parks. I love em dashes in my writing, to the weariness of my English professors. I love touches that aren’t inherently sexual (hugs, massages, cuddles), am a strong believer people need platonic touches, and would be put off by a partner who always converted them into something sexual.

I'm social with most people, especially people I'm not attracted to. Often only get terribly shy if I'm into someone/they make me nervous.

As a partner, I want to please and take care of my person (e.g. giving them massages when they’re tired, (attempting to) make them food when they’re sick, listening to them when they’re frustrated, etc.) and be taken care of in turn (likely with a bit of force, as I have eldest sister syndrome). This goes for all my relationships, romantic or platonic. I also want to have fun with my person (!!!) I love lazy Sunday mornings and cozy nights in watching trashy TV, but also: showcases, thrifting, literary readings, stand up comedy, film nights! In the very least, be willing to let me drag you with me. Ultimately, I want your life to be better because I’m in it, and vice versa.

As a sub, I'm sweet. Sometimes will bark, but never bite (unless you want me to?). I'm occasionally bratty, but it’s mostly for fun/pushing your buttons/testing you, and wouldn’t take much to put me in my place. I never want to make you feel sad or disappointed, and would feel hurt if you feel that way/especially torn if I was the reason. I love directions—the clearer the better. I was a teacher's pet in school, received honors in all my classes, got full scholarships to everything I applied to. All to say, I am always striving for top marks ^.^

I have minimal in-person experience, a bit of online experience and years of research experience. Right, so what does “research” mean? Mostly when I’m nervous about things outside of my scope, I learn everything there is to know about it, short of actually jumping in and doing it. Means I’ll likely be able to pick out if you’re a shitty dom. Means I'll definitely pick out if you're a fake dom. And if you're genuine, it means I would need you to be patient with me as we learn each other. I don't know everything I like or don't like, or everything I want/don't want out of a BDSM or D/s relationship, and am entering this wanting to learn.

My trust in romantic and sexual relationships requires time and effort, and for good reason, because once you have it, I will be totally, and completely, and helplessly yours. Only yours. You will have my attention, affection, and submission. You will have control over me. Over my health, my safety, my mind. That is a weighty and terrifying thing, yes? So be patient with me (and really, any other subs), please.

General Kinks/turn ons:

• psychological kink, mindfuck
• praise kink
• being called princess, sunshine, kitten, baby, etc
• being treated condescendingly
• affectionate cruelty
• humor
• sensation deprivation
• ice / wax play
• deep voice
• being protected and possessed
• intelligence, communication, humility and maturity (probably the things I find sexiest on this list)

Specific kinks/turn ons

• "come on, baby", "do it for me", "you're being so good," "what a good girl you're being for me"
• patronizingly: "aww, is my baby crying?", "does it hurt? ohh, I'm so sorry," "of course, you are such a smart, strong girl. uh-huh"
• warning in your eyes: "you want to say that again?"/"I'll let you try that one more time"
• etc etc

Things I'm interested in exploring:

• orgasm control/denial
• begging
• impact play
• fear play
• dumbification
• hypnosis

I’m willing to attempt most things if my partner wants to and I trust them, but my hard limits include:

• anal, scat, blood, bestiality, anything illegal, anything permanent or public, being recorded or photographed. Have tried, and for the life of me, can not seem to call someone "Daddy" without squealing. Not so much as a hard limit as a, I promise I've tried but it makes me wince every time

Note/P.S?: I’ve never come with someone else. You’re welcome to try, but I don’t want to feel pressured, or for you to feel bad, when/if it doesn’t happen.

Outside of BDSM, I'm grateful to have a fulfilling life—lovely friends and family, various communities I’m engaged in, and I feel settled within myself. I need my alone time and space to be my own person outside of a dynamic/relationship, so I’m not looking for someone controlling outside of a dynamic. I will, of course, extend that maturity and trust to my partner as well.

You:

• Read this novel-length ad and are not put off by my use of em dashes and parenthesis
• Are strict/hard Dom but a playful person. Can take a challenge and a joke (or multiple of them). Will make me laugh before you fuck with me
• Are articulate, kind, and humble
• Are aged 22-28 (21-30 is ok)
• 5’9
• Are around Cambridge and want to eventually meet in person
• Would be willing to be monogamous after/if we have a conversation about it (I don’t need to be monogamous right off the bat)

If you’re interested, send me a message with your photo and introducing yourself (voice message would be so lovely). If I’m interested, I will send the same back. If I’m not interested, I will kindly let you know.