I’m not going to lie, I’ve led a sexually repressed life. Growing up in the church with a priest for a father definitely messed w my mind. I grew up feeling deep shame for my masochistic and submissive urges. It’s always been a part of me though. Even before I new what sex was, Ken was tying up Barbie.
I’ve known I was a masochist from a young age as well. My friend and i decided we were going to slap each other in the face like the women do to the men in the movies when they’re upset. Just to see what it feels like. I slapped her and she had a normal reactio: She did not like it one bit and slapped me back as hard as she could. As soon as her palm hit my cheek, I felt an instant sense of euphoria and calm. It’s hard to explain. Like everything was right In the world for that moment. I knew enough to know that was not a normal reaction, but I wanted more of it. I started hitting myself with different things (the remote was my weapon of choice), and thus began my life long relationship with pain.

I’ve never had an IRL BDSM experience, or had anyone else inflict pain on me. I want those experiences very badly, but that’s not realistic at this time. I’ve had two online dynamics that i enjoyed very much though. It really felt nice to be in a submissive role. Not just nice. Perfect. Like it’s my true nature

Right now I’m just looking to make friends and see what’s out there or where things go. I’m a total sapiosexual so stimulating conversation is important to me. I’m especially interested in speaking with sadists, but have a great deal of respect for all different dom types. Hit me up if you would like to chat. I’m fine with verifying early on with a swf photo of me doing a certain hand gesture or whatever tickles your fancy. I know there are a lot of scammers on this app. I look forward to hearing from you! If you read this far, send me a chat with this prompt: how many submissives have you had and what is one thing they would all say about you?