As stated above I am a trans woman. (non-op). But I am on hrt since January. Couple things. First, there's something about being called "good girl" or to "behave" and having my forehead kissed. But I can't find a dominant man to save my life. They all keep asking me to Dom them, and I'm not the least bit dominant. In keeping with that same theme, I have a particular kink I have seen others talk about in the past, but I still feel weird about it, and I don't really feel comfortable bringing it up to any actual potential real life romantic partners. I basically only ever do it with some random person on a sex site. But, I have this thing kind of related to a pee fetish but at the same time not really. It's strictly just being told to hold it by a strong guy in a firm voice. He might say something like. "good girls don't wet themselves. You're a grown woman, I'm sure you can hold it". I know it's not exactly healthy and so one shouldn't engage in this sort of play all the time, and I don't. But the few people I've found who actually do it for me, (they say they are into it) they usually just end up feeling bad for me and letting me go, well before I want to because I'm kind of a brat so I beg a lot and do things I'm not supposed to in order to evoke a negative reaction or punishment. Any ideas as to how I could safely bring this up to a potential partner? I just worry about them thinking I'm crazy and it ruining everything. And also just finding someone genuinely into it in general has proven difficult. Like I'm not into wetting at all. It's strictly everything before that. The wetting I guess can be good in the sense of the punishment that comes after, but ultimately that isn't the goal. The goal is for me to simply be a good girl and wait. I also have praise and degradation/humiliation kinks that tend to feature pretty well into this sort of play.

Am I weird? 🙃