I like my BDSM a little more intense than most people here.

Which gets difficult when it starts into an area that some people might consider abusive, I see a lot of posts that read something like "I'll use you brutally and leave you gasping on the floor, a broken wreck".

I don't get it, why go through all the trouble of finding someone worth tormenting and then limit that to only one depraved night?

I don't see the point in only using you once. I want it to last much, much longer. CNC and control aren’t about physical brutality, it's about emotional intensity. There's a lot of emotion in being used, controlled and consensually abused. 

The dynamics that set are layered, exquisite in their subtle, they evolve over time and the bond they result in is truly worthwhile. 

It takes time to build up, but the payoff is amazing. If I spare your ass on the first encounter, or your mouth, or cunt, it's to build up a narrative, anticipation and maybe something to terrify you with. 

Maybe you're a virgin, and I defile every hole but spare your cunt. Mock you relentlessly for being the most depraved, broken virgin in the world. Force you to swallow piss, cover your face, ass and tits in cum, make you feel deeply abnormal for have such unusual sexual experiences, but you enjoy them so much and feel so strongly connected that you set it aside and willingly submit again.

Maybe you hate anal, and I force you to come only when your ass is full, eventually you start believing you can't come without your ass being used, what a cute little mind fuck that will be.

I want to get deep inside that mind, find out how it works, and mess it up just enough to make you something interesting and unique. 

I want you to look back in a few years and be incapable of explaining your sexuality without describing the effect I had on it.

I want to use you, record it, and use that to force you to see me again, to do more, push you further. Trap you in this endless cycle of blackmail and abuse.

Contact me, let me talk you into something interesting, intense and fun.

S.