Hi friends. I have somewhat of an interesting question/predicament. So my Sir is also my husband, the BDSM came before the marriage, so this has been about 2 years of us being in eachothers lives. When I say I am OBSESSED with my husband, I think I mean it quite literally. I love smelling every one of his body parts, I miss him when I'm gone for more than an hour. If I get home from work before he does, I will quite literally check to see if his car is outside every 5 minutes. We had explored some pet play and currently practice 24/7 Dom/Sub lifestyle and I've always been a bottom but when it comes to him, im pathetic. Like will do anything in the bounds of morality and legality for him. Its possible that I have actually never truly loved another person and another person has ever truly loved me as fully and deeply as he loves me. I thought this feeling would go away after our first year or so, but its year two and its still as strong as before. Im just wondering if this has ever happened to anyone else. I feel that I am quite literally desperate for his love and attention, and it's not a bad feeling. I just want to know if it's normal. I feel like I've been in the fog of sub frenzy for the entire time, and I don't know how healthy that is for my mental health. Just for a little more context, he has not done anything to make me think that he has manipulated me into these feelings, no red flags, I actually didn't think we were a good fit until he opened up to me and got more vulnerable. We slowly incorporated the BDSM as well, so even that was a wonderful experience. Idk, am I possibly overthinking this feeling? Ive been thinking about bringing it up with my therapist, but I'm currently in the process of switching all of my insuramce over since we got married and I quit my job, so as of now I have no mental health counselor to speak with and I feel like that would be one hell of a first session. So here I am asking you guys for your experience and advice. I truly appreciate anything you all have to offer