You know when you get a deep tissue massage and it hurts but feels good at the same time cuz you know it’s going to do some damage but also good?

Well that’s kinda how impact sessions feel for me. When I get ready for a session(I got into detail about this in my aftercare post) i like to get myself traditional and physically.

I make sure I stay hydrated, take some Tylenol to help with inflammation and a hot shower to relax my body.

Now impact sessions don’t always have to be sexual.

One of the best impact sessions was all mental sexually and impact Physically.

When I get in all 4 with my naked body exposed I feel everything. The chill in the air, the bed against my knees, the grip of sheets in my palms, the smell of the leather about to hit my body.

It’s another feeling. Almost euphoric state. Once the feeling of leather hits your skin over and over and over. Every thud, every slap, every swipe, feels different but the same.

The mind is a hell of thing, it tells you it’s feeling pain but then protects you from that pain and turns it into pleasure.

When I go for long periods of time my mind changes with each hit. I may get aggressive and let out screams, I may get quiet and just take the pain and submission. Sometimes it turns sexual and deviant and that’s when my alter ego comes out( I like to call her Veronica)

My mind wonders when being impacted. But also goes very blank. And I think that’s why I enjoy it so. Having high intense job, having to put in a save face every day for everyone is exhausting mentally. So being able to not think, just lay there (or suspend) is freeing because all my mind thinks about is myself and being present in that moment. Feeling every nerve in my body. But then my body goes numb still feeling everything and feeling nothing all at once. Putting my trust into someone to take care of my body but also use it without making me feel used is not something I give lightly. I don’t do it often and actually haven’t had a session in over a year. It’s not something I need and my toys are put away far back in the closet. I don’t crave it but sometime my mind wonders to when I had those sessions and think if I’ll ever find someone to give that trust to again.

I’ve been told I can take a lot of pain. As seen in the attached pic of broken skin. I don’t bruise easily so to give color or break skin on me is hard to do.

It’s funny I always been scared of physical pain weather getting hurt, being sick or what what not and thought I’d rather take mental pain over physical… Until a Dom showed me that Physical can be just as enjoyable.

Mentally impact play takes a lot to get used to, and I’ve never been so high in a sub space as I was when doing an impact session. But I’ve also never come down so fast/hard from a sub space the same way. Unfortunately I had to have a bad come down to realize how to properly come down and communicate how to safely comment come out of that head space. If you don’t have communication and trust it can be dangerous for both parties.

I invested and been lucky to have had someone who gifted me some great tools that are higher quality. Any advice from this post is invest in better tools and toys. Don’t go cheap and get stuff from the sex store. There is a great leather maker on Etsy from Monterey Ca or one in the Ukraine I frequent when I buy.

Impact play isn’t for everyone for either party the giving and receiving. And it’s not my favorite things but I do enjoy it when the opportunity presents its self.

If you want to know more feel free to ask :)

Ellie 🖤