I surprised myself today thinking about my journey in the BDSM. I started at my country legal age to explore it, even if before I had some interest already. I like to say that I was fairly far from what I'm today, but, hey! All starts from nothing no?

My thoughts was focused on my likes at that time...I was able to do some simple knots, that I still use today. I was fascinated by the sound of a spanking and the feeling of the skin under my hand at each hit. I was into clothespins, candles, I even had a paddle I made using a ping pong racket (hoping it's the right name in English). And I liked to give some rules to follow even outside the scene. Probably without know I was already into control. Anyway, today at almost 37, after 19 years,I feel like I'm a totally different person. I enlarged my kinks, I greedily explored and tried a lot of stuffs, I had chance to spoke with many BDSMer, male,female, young and old. I had a mentor who been patient and gave me lessons (for free and on a mannequin) to how use most of whips, how to tie avoiding to cause pain and damages, and also had chance tosee at a real drama, consumed in the community cause a stupid error... So, why this wall of text? Fact is that even if I like teaching (I like to think that as someone helped me grown and learn I mist do the same...call it karma...), I probably end to have a really high standard, probably my expectations scares most of the newbies and experienced one, that like me know what they like and want, often seeks for something less hard, something more "fun" or "casual". Today I ended to think that maybe, be lucky to collect so much experience, to be guided and been part of the local community turned against myself,making me unable to enjoy something more "easy". I know, I should be happy of my travel and my experience, but some days frustrations strikes hard...

Well, if you reached this line, hope you can learn something from my story, if not, I can give you one last hint...never eat yellow snow. Maybe not the best place for such hint 🤷‍♂️