I have so many contradictions! It's like I'm a Walking Contradiction (and I ain't got no right...)! Where to start?!

Service Sub & Submission Fetishist and I'm also: Smart ass masochist and brat

For me these identities oppose a lot, but in a playful and fun way. I love to be a good girl, obey, and have fun with that; I take a lot of pride in all of the ways I'm fantastic at delivering service. I'm an amazing cook, I love attending to people, drinks service, making things, human furniture, preparing baths, so much; that just makes it all the more flirty and fun when I don't do a good job. My motivation gets twisted a bit when I brat, and I definitely feel the conflict inside "I want to be good, I'm gonna get it for this, what is she gonna do?, should I really roll the dice like this?!" At the same time that's part of the thrill, and since they know I can be really good when I want to it's a lot more of a direct challenge, and also more of an invitation to get extra cruel and creative with the response.

Submissive and Sadistic Top The conflict here also plays into the bratty side of me. I love topping for forced orgasm play, tease and denial, intense biting, hickies, scratching, and tickling. That said I absolutely do not ever want to be in a dominant position when doing it. It was a conflict for a while until I realized that it's definitely in my bratty mode where it comes out the most strongly. I love being bad and using a chance to service my Dominant as a time to top them and play at taking control for a while; at the same time it's always the knowing that they're going to get me back once they regain their senses or I finish that makes it fun for me. I love to push buttons, get reactions, and drive them wild; I just want it to be wrapped in a larger power dynamic where I'm submissive, and that I'm being a little bit of a brat with it.

I consider myself to be a Submissive Verse as a result; I'm not a switch in power exchange but I will top/bottom (verse) in many forms of play.