Thanks 😊

Chemical play is the use of chemical agents to act on the body to create sensations, effects, or experiences. I like to break it into 3 big categories:

1. Sensation/visual Only - Menthol, Capsaicin, Chili peppers, ginger, nettles, lidocaine, henna, vinegar, skin dyes, hair dye, &c.

2. Systemic - Aspirin, warfarin, deep heat/icy hot, tiger balm, other sports rubs, tylenol, diuretics, laxatives, emetics, nausea medications &c.

3. Intoxicant - Ketamine, Alcohol, poppers, lsd, ecstasy, pcp, ghb, mushrooms, thc, benadryl, &c.

And then there're a few things that fit into a different (ill advised and hopefully never executed on) space of strong acids/bases for things like chemical branding but this is outside my scope and I'd put it more into the branding/Scarification realm than chemical play realm since that's the target effect at that point. I've also not seen this done and wouldn't ever suggest it to be done. Too hard to control the variables and all. It would just be a very bad decision to try all around.

Mindfucking someone with abrasives and then vinegar, lemon juice, and some chilis though; that would definitely be possible.

Yep! That's a lot of it! Essentially I started using it because (for a variety of reasons) "slave" as a label just didn't work well for me. I wanted to find something that captured a similar power dynamic but enjoy some of the cultural baggage, and the fact there's also a bit of a sapphic reference there too was a huge plus! Like with any role level if you like it feel free to use it! I'm not the language police after all!

Generally the types of service stuff I love are: - giving massage (not always sexual or sensual, but like, real heavy massage) - drawing and preparing baths/showers - bathing people - preparing beds for sleeping - cooking - making drinks - serving food & beverages - planning events - building furniture/tools - designing furniture/tools - research and data analysis - project planning - filming & cinematography - editing - copy editing - teaching - carrying things - chauffeur services - ataché work - free use for sex - free use for BDSM - being shared - hosting guests & hospitality - organizing cleaning and household tasks - & much more In sure I'm forgetting

Did your interests in your kinks ever change due to performing them in front of the camera?

Not really. They evolved naturally, and as I mentioned before, as an exhibitionist who also loves the mindfuck of being humiliated on camera and having that out in the world being on camera really is one of my interests and kinks, so it just slots in and plays well with the rest nicely!

How is the safety aspect at such shootings?

Usually pretty amazing! Since I'm only working with professionals 99% of the time everyone is very careful about staying within their skill set while on there camera. Nobody wants to post a video that is partially promotion on their work and come off looking like an asshole who doesn't know what they're doing.

It's a part of the reason why pretty much everyone I play with in my personal life is also a professional or performer of some kind, or at least has that background (and for any professional the social network and vetting history to back it up).

Beyond that I also have access to sets and spaces that are specifically designed for thr activities we're doing, and have all the correct gear, anchor points, safe sex supplies and sanitation supplies for doing what we plan in the shoot. I also get access to test results from everyone if there's gonna be fluid exchange of any kind, or a risk thereof.

A silly story about me and safety:

Thanks to my hEDS I also have a different safety profile than most. My joints slip out easily so I have a high fall risk just walking around, I can dislocate my shoulders at random, and many other irritating things.

That means that I wear braces, use a wheelchair if I'd need to sit in an unsupportive chair, walk, or stand for a long time (>10 minutes/500ft). However, there is a situation where my joints are well protected from moving in ways they shouldn't, and where there's control over how my body distributes its weight I don't normally have: Being in restrictive of heavy bondage! So as long as it's done right and doesn't hyperextend my joints I'm at my safest when I'm tied up & suspended. I can't move my arms, legs, snd head around. It keeps my joints in place and since I'm such a fall risk in normal life my chances of getting that kind if injury is suspended or partially suspended bondage is lower than my risk of carrying something in both hands or just walking up & down stairs.

This all plays into the fact that the only time I've ever fully dislocated a shoudler when shibari was involved I was just sitting snd watching the scene! My muscles spasmed in the wrong way at the wring moment and my shoulder popped out and popped back in. It's crazy painful, and so I was injured by not getting my arms tied into place that day so my shoulder couldn't move.

So yeah.... Safety is a core consideration with who I work and play with. I also have a very literally different risk profile than most people due to my hEDS, and it really affects how I assess things XD.

And last but not least. Have a good surgery and quick recovery. Thank you for answering our questions (general thank you 😊)

Thank You for the well wishes and giving me something to do!

Do you act out your kinks only in a professional setting or also in private? If yes, do they differ? Meaning, would you do something in a professional setting you wouldn‘t do in private and vice versa?

I definitely seek out BDSM in my private life. It's central to my ability to enjoy sex in general. I've got a really intense fetish for submission so it's almost more important to me sexually then the sex itself. This can make it challenging to find partners in daily life for long term D/S as the intensity and trust I need from a partner to go as far as I like is hard to build, and few people want to engage in that kind of high control relationship. Being aromantic also contributes as I really need to build dynamics with women who want that control and also get someone from it do it can be balanced. I don't like the idea of being in a friendship and D/S dynamic where the dynamic mostly serves my wants and desires; we gotta be both getting a deep satisfaction and have a deep desire for it in order for me to settle in and get anything from it.

That said, my private "just for me & my friends," playtime tends to be the most extreme scenes I do. Also some of the most sexual scenes, and the longest scenes. I have an overnight hunting/takedown/hogtie/captivity/living experiment/supernatural/torture/fluid milking scene slated for matter this year in the hills of Santa Monica. It's gonna be much more intense side it's just the two of us and it's out in the wilderness where nobody can hear us and there's no content site restrictions on what they can do to me. I know I'm gonna bleed, cry, cum, probably piss and shit in containers, and be forced to get snot and drool everywhere too, and that's gonna be the lightest component of that scene. It's also gonna go for like 12 hours. We're gonna be exhausted but in such bliss!

How is the experience in a professional setting? (E.g. Do you go into subspace?)

It really depends. I'd it's a short scene with someone new and not one of my favorite activities, or more of a Top/Bottom vibe than a D/S vibe I'll probably just be having fun with it as playtime more than a subspace/extacy/blissed out vibe. That said those can be a great way to get back to reality and keep up variety in between the more psychologically intense scenes!

Highly sexual and sensual scenes (even if brutally sadistic) tend to serve me into blissy mind blank (but very present in my body) sub space that I love. Generally I try to book these kinds of scenes as Femme 4 Femme scenes too because of my preferences, but I can definitely enjoy them with everyone.

Highly intense physical S/M scenes send me into a different more "broken bitch" kind of subspace that's equally desirable. This is what I'm seeking with that friend out in California at all; I definitely love it just as much as the sweet sensual submission. At the same time it's brutal and hard on my body with how intense I go probably so I can't do it too often. On camera there's not many places they can or will be allowed to go hard enough to max me out, and that's a good thing for safety and comfort of the crew and producers &c. The few places, people, and groups that do go that hard on camera really love it, which means that the social dynamic is alreadya great vibe.

For the psychologically intense scenes it really depends on how the shoot runs. If there's a bunch of breaks and such for lighting adjustment, camera moves, or other tech stuff, that can definitely break the vibe and make it more of a "fun but not in a deep headspace " kinda scene (which has its advantages if you're trying to save your energy for another shoot that same day/week). On the other hand sometimes the camera being there and the fact it's gonna be released for anyone who wants too see it can hugely add to the scene.

It's way more intenese to have someone torture your deepest most twisted desires out of you and make you say them into a camera that's pointed at your face while shaming you for them and reminding you that it's gonna be on the internet forever and you'll never be able to take it back of live it down. It can also enhance the submissive and psychological intensity of fear play, sexual exhibitionism: "Think about how many people are gonna jerk off to this because of how slutty you look! So many men are gonna cum and blow a load because of you, and yet you're so pathetic youre begging me for the chance to cum! You're such a pathetic bitch you can't even get off while they're watching unless I tell you to, but they're getting to blow as many loads as they want thinking of filling up that cumdump pussy of yours!"

In short: The camera, tech stuff, and crew can definitely distract from the headspace. At the same time with the right scene and a skilled cinematogrpher and director it can become a huge asset to getting into the desired headspace, subspace, and emotional state for the scene too. It's not about the tools you have, it's about how you use them ^{.^}

Have there ever been any serious injuries from those plays?

So I've only been seriously injured once while playing. My surgery was botched enough that they put the urethra where people expected the vagina to be. A friend tried to finger me and missed. On the one hand I learned I love sounding and it feels incredible! On the ither hand I hadbto go to the ER to make sure I didn't tear my bladder.

This was us fooling around after a personal scene involving cinamon oil, surgical staples, clothespins, and a lot of impact play on top of the staples... so none of the wild stuff... just getting fingered XD. It's the vanilla stuff that gets ya XD.

Good news is: After today that won't be a problem anymore!

How is the aftercare after those shootings? (Regarding time, not actually knowing the others or not seeing them again)

It really depends. I make a lot of friends on my shoots, and odds are if we play together for a shoot we'll wind up bonding and hanging out together in some capacity afterwards. Even those who are acquaintances more than friends still hang and chat a bit and share silly stories.

One thing to remember is that with all the setup, tech stuff, and teardown a 1 hour video takes 10 to 18 hours on set to shoot. So if you're only in 1 of 3 scenes for 1 hour if footage you've probably got 2 hours of downtime joking around and chatting.

It's also a really small world in the BDSM entertainment scene; as a result while I might not be friends with the A list of the community I've met enough people that most of us are like 1 to 2 degrees of separation from everyone else. We're also (generally) all into a lot of the same stuff, and a lot of amazingly creative different stuff so there's plenty to talk about.

As for aftercare in specific:

It really depends. One of my assets is that I can play really hard and still be in my "rational" threshold where I don't need major aftercare. It's a part of the job to understand what your limits are, what you'll need on set, and making sure you express that and don't go harder than what the available aftercare will allow.

If it's a 2 performer scene then you might be able to cuddle up with the other performer during cooldown which can be nice and allow you some extra distance on the things you do. If you know you're just getting a blanket, a light conversation, and a warm shower after the shoot then you go in prepared for that and communicate that to the staff. They want a good amount of chemistry with you, they want you relaxed and able to perform, they want you sober so you can make good choices and alert then to issues quickly, and most of all: they want you to come back if your scenes are hot!

If I know I'm going to get insufficient aftercare on set (which has only ever happened in a single NON-BDSM shoot BTW) I'll make arrangements with a friend or professional cuddler after to help with that. I mostly wind up doing this with in-person clients since the aftercare we do is entirely coordinated for the clients' benefit and not mine .(Which I'm totally okay with and do intentionally as that's just part of the service they're paying for!)

But again, my aftercare needs are very light. Usually a blanket and some warmth, maybe some cuddles, and a litre of water with dehydration salts and I'm good to go for another heavy scene within 20 to 60 minutes and a bathroom trip. At some parties Ive done 3-4 heavy scenes back to back and been good after with just a check in over the next couole days to make sure my partners are happy and doing well (Doms & Tops need aftercare too!).

Did your kinks diversify or intensify with "the job" (I see you're into some heavy stuff)

I wouldn't say they diversified with the job per se. Once I realized that my fantasies were all things I truly wanted to explore, that they were real desires and not just things to enjoy thinking about in my private times I fully embraced my submissive masochist identity and dropped a lot of my limits. It's definitely not for everyone, but for me I really embrace the idea of RACK and PRICK, and choose my partners for the intense stuff carefully.

I would say my desire for extremity and intensity did inform my desire to go into this professionaly though. I wanted to do things that just wouldn't be responsible in your average kink scene, but working with professionals who soecialize in these intense activities is a huge benefit of professional work. I would absolutely do anything I do on camera off camera,and frequently play with my professional friends in a "just for us" setting too! Honestly my most intense scenes are often the ones with other pros that happen off camera at closed parties and professional dungeon spaces. Most sites won't allow my craziest stuff on them anymore so it's my special little personal collection of really fond memories with some amazing people.

do you have "a say" in your partners when performing / how do you connect

Right now I wear a lot of hats: - Producer - Editor - Cinematographer - Camera Operator - Key Grip - Performer - Stunt Coordinator - Executive Producer - Composer - Sound Designer

That is to say, I produce a bit over half the content I feature in, even when I'm producing it for another studio. I refuse to direct because I'm not great at it and quite frankly I'd rather admit it's not my strong point and get better at the other stuff at let people other than me do it. What can I say: I'd rather follow directions than give them XD.

My work with FemDom Philadelphia is also work where I get to perform with mostly who I choose. Occasionally someone's talent will no-call no-show and I'll have to fill in, or I get a shoot with someone who I didn't plan to work with before our filming day; usually I shoot 3-5 different scenes of wildly variable intensity with 4-5 performers those days! At the same time I can always veto a scene, performer, or suggest an alternate there. I also work with the group regularly and really love everyone there so it's never an issue. Honestly it's only ever been a fantastic time and many of the people there are close friends of mine. The chemistry in any shoots I do there is 100% real and it's 100% good friends doing crazy stuff together.

My work outside of that is a bit less controlled. I can always refuse a shoot if the other talent isn't respectful but I do often meet them the day of the shoot, but that's also part of the job. It can also be fun to meet someone that day, knowing they're gonna do some insane stuff to you, and it's gonna be seen by a lot of people. It's a thrill I enjoy and get off on. So I do get some say, but with scheduling the way it is you work with a lot of people, but on these shoots there's also a crew and such around so it's super comfortable. Again: definitely not for everyone but it's very much my thing, so it really works for me.

do you ever safeword / do you sometimes hesitate to safeword

Funny you mention this as I'm actually teaching a class on self assessment and active bottoming this year at DomCon LA and this is a core part of it!

I "yellow" a lot and for many reasons: - If the activity going on would push the scene into a headspace the Dominant said they didn't want to explore in that scene. - If a particular activity is just too intense in that moment, or I know we planned to oace for a longer scene I'll use that to bring it to the top/dominant's attention - If there's a safety issue that needs the dominant's attention. - &c

Basically if there's something that's going to negatively impact the scene overall I'll yellow to let the dominant/top be aware of that. This also helps build trust with my partners. If they know I'll take that corrective action and communicate that with them then they will have more confidence that I'll keep myself safe as intensity grows. That trust allows them to feel safe pushing their own boundaries and going farther into their most extreme fantasies as well.

That said there's also a lot of knowing what emotional spaces we're looking to explore. If the top/dominant wants to feel gleeful cruelty, absolutely powerful, and revel in causing extreme distress then I'm gonna let things go until I'm a broken, bruised up, sobbing mess before I yellow, and if I do I'll say something like "if you use that toy it's going to send me to X space really fast and I won't be handling it I'll push me into genuine suffering." Then they can use the pause to assess if that's the direction they want to take me in that moment or not.

If you noticed Yellow kinda serves two functions for me and I'm thinking about splitting it into Yellow and Mercy with my more frequent partners.

Yellow being the "hey, there's a safety issue but I will continue if it's easily fixed / I get a break for bloodflow to stabilize (Orthostatic hypotension is annoying) / just avoid a specific thing for a health reason.

Mercy being the "That toy/thing in that spot/activity/insult/&c is hitting really hard and putting me in a different headspace. I'm okay exploring it but I need you to be aware of where we are going since aftercare needs and risk levels are going to be different if we do.

That said, aside from my first limit testing scene I've never needed to "Red" before. I'm also a little disappointed in myself for redding out in that one because I know I could have handled a lot more but kinda minfucked myself into it by knowing that my Domme wanted me to "Red" at some point to find out how far she could push me. The inevitable of me Redding caused me to focus on "This is a lot, is this the point, should I Red now," and a lot less on just letting myself go and enjoying the destroyed, broken down, sobbing, tortured, inhuman, blank minded, state of annihilation that I could have achieved had I ket go.

It was actually that scene (and the regret from quitting early) that prompted me to re-assess my safeword use and what emotional spaces I wanted to access with my play. I realized I wanted to go way past where that was and I needed to get to know myself and my body much better to be able to go that far while maintaining my safety. Now my dominants can keep me safe, know that I'll keep myself safe, and also know that they have my consent to ignore my mercy yellows and just break me if they want. It's a much more intimate and thrilling way to play for me.

Do you fake it? :D I've only faked is a few times but they all had at least one of a few things in common: - No power play (I have a fetish for submission, if I'm not in subspace I can't orgasm) - No pain (Okay, if I'm be tortured in the right ways I can come even without genital stimulation of any kind) - No women (I'm hella gay) - Vanilla sex - I'm the dominant in that moment (I'm a sub, a cruel, sadistic, forced orgasm & tease & denial top, but a sub; If that comes out I fully expect to pay my penance for it at least 3 times worse and with evil glee from my Dominant XD)

So I've faked an O like 3 times, and it's always been with cis men who wanted me for vanilla sexual stuff (that they were really, really, bad at).

I'll never fake anything in a BDSM scene, communication and hinest reactions sre just far too important when doing that to me. I love it too much. Any resctions or orgasms you see from me in that context sre 100% the real deal!

• are you also practicing kink at home (do skip if too personal)

I feel like I answered this but yes! Absolutely! I'm working on moving and renovating a house now and I'll have a private dungeon, cage bunk bed room (Dominants sleep on top, obviously), and a bunch of other furniture I'm building too!

• what ARE your future projects

That's one I don't want to spoil, partly because things are still maliable and I don't want to say anything that I might not be able to uohold, and partly because I don't want to step on any production company or friend's toes by announcing anything too soon.

I can say that I have 6 major videos in my editing queue including some wild Shibari (my first rope scenes), a wax play scene, a caning, and some really fun & sadistic foot stuff.

and why do you even need morphine?! Take the pain! :p

Turns out I didn't XD. It barely works for me anyway so I'm on Tylenol & Advil and it is working great!

I've not had any issues with it in negotiations. I usually am just very upfront about the things that I don't do because of it and what the risks are.

Most people appreciate that candor and if they're concerned about something they plan on doing will just ask if it's okay, and I can respond.

I have a rather extensive consent spreadsheet with all my medical restrictions, yes list, limits, notes, &c that I provide to ask if the people I play with. That also really helps since they can verify everything they need to quickly as well.

It's also a component of why I prefer playing with people that play often and with a variety of people, which leads me to playing mostly with professionals in various parts of the kink world. Overall though I know what the risks of the kinds of play I engage in are, and I fully accept them myself. When things go wrong I don't blame anyone and just work to communicate it quickly and efficiently. Any issues that do come up are minimized that way, and I build up a lot of trust from the people I play with that I'll not put myself out them at a disagreeable level of risk for his we're playing.

Favorite Chem Play Substances

I love capsaicin. When used externally/dermally it's totally harmless but activates the same sensory receptors as your body actually being burned alive. As a result depending on concentration you can experience anything from mild heat to absolutely maxing out your pain sensation too.

Menthol is very similar for the cold receptors as well which makes it really useful for that!

Lidocaine creams can be a very fun addition to tease and denial play since they can render the penis/clit totally numb so you can be used but get no pleasure from it!

Do you need a cooldown That entirely depends on what you're doing and using. Generally I'd say if using any kind of medication follow the directions of use absolutely and without deviation as a safety measure. For things like capsaicin or menthol you can be as kind or cruel as you like!

I answered this a bit ago in one of the above threads so I'll be brief in this reply.

I saw a pro domme for a bit and realized that I was really able to handle a lot and that I enjoyed helping dominants live out their fantasies. It just clicked after that!

What do I consider mental conditioning

Pretty much the dictionary definition here XD. But in specific: - Using forced/denied orgasms and arousal to be given new fetishes - Manipulation of my mind to convince me I want things I don't enjoy - Building verbal arousal/orgasm triggers - Building triggers to force obedience and subspace when used - manipulation of the sense of reality - deceloping verbal/tactile/visual triggers for different sensory experiences - gaslighting - &c

**What's my goal

The goal for me is to lose control of my mind in a very deeply submissive way. The reality is that none of these things work unless the subject of the conditioning wants them to on some level. At the same time there's a unique intimacy in letting someone brainwash you into getting horny or orgasming (or experiencing intense pain) just by using a certain word/sound/touch.

Sensory play tips

Using a gas or medical mask with a filter or scented oil on the inside will control the sense of smell.

There's plenty of trick fruits and seasonings that suppress all our parts of the sense of taste as well and can manipulate that very effectively. Think those magic Sour → Sweet berries, it the use of toothpaste to make sweet unasteable for a while.

Use earbuds to control how much and what can be heard by the sub.

Oh, favorites there's so many! Fair warning, In a brat and this post is now a trap: read at your own risk:

You lost the game: and won the game! https://xkcd.com/391/

The quandary of an Aromantic math student: https://xkcd.com/55/

learning about frequency https://xkcd.com/55/

Secret Easter eggs are fun! https://xkcd.com/404/

The one that spawned an actual porn site https://xkcd.com/305/

*The geekiest kind of homicide" https://xkcd.com/356/

Online reviews are useful https://xkcd.com/325/

Because things work don't ya know https://xkcd.com/54/

When you hold all the bragging rights https://xkcd.com/435/

no but like, all of them :p https://xkcd.com/263/

Aside from repping what is clearly the best college major and field of study out of all of them I also enjoy some other webcomics & webtoons:

Misfile

Mage & Demon Queen

The Devil's Panties

And that's all I can remember/type at the moment with my meds and IVs in XD.

The stains/dyes are definitely also in marking play. Chemical Play tends to having a large overlap with other play. I also find it's at it's best when it's used as an enhancement or facilitator of other kinds of play. The fun part is you can find ways to mix it with nearly anything else there is!

Yeah, intoxication and mind altering stuff is definitely on the outer edge of edge play. I'd love to experiment with psychedelics as part of some fear play, sensory play, mental conditioning, or hypnosis play though. I imagine they'd also work well as a real punishment. I know if getting a bad hangover was the result of if I disobeyed or was sassy too much I'd be a much less bratty brat for a while XD.

Oh, sorry if I wasn't clear; Yep can start posting questions now XD

Sure! I'm happy to elaborate or answer any other questions re: EDS & kink, and how I relate to it too!

Surgery went well. Recovery is also going pretty well. Might even get an early discharge!

I haven't yet but I'll take a look!

Oh yeah they took Wetriffs down a while ago. You can still find it on the internet archive through 🙂😉