Sometimes I wonder if my perfect soulmate is even out there. Maybe I live to much in a fantasy world from reading dark romance books. I want a man like in those books. Masculine, dominant, a leader, devoted, only has eyes for me, a protector, kinky, skilled in the bedroom, my confidante, my safe place. Good, open, calm, communication is a non negotiable for me. Between 39-55 years old.

Full disclosure, I am married, biding my time to get divorced. I checked out a few years ago. I will tell you more about that when we chat.

I am looking for a true, real life, relationship with you. Starting online until we get to know each other, trust each other, and just can no longer be apart. Eventually, once I am able to leave, I want us to be together, as it should be.

I have hidden my kinky side and my submissive side, until about 2 years ago when I decided to embrace it. You only live once and I decided I don't want to settle and I don't want to hide my true self anymore.

I am looking for my forever Dom. And I won't stop until I find him. I have posted a list on my profile that would describe him as well as a few of my kinks and what I look for physically.

About me: I just turned 49, I'm from the Midwest, I am 5'7, 129lbs, blue eyes, glasses, tattoos, shoulder length hair that is usually blonde or brown depending on my mood, but I am considering growing out the gray I am seeing at my roots. I had bariatric surgery in February of this year for weight loss, I am down just over 100lbs. I can't work. I am on SSDI because I have been diagnosed with anxiety, depression and PTSD all pretty well maintained with meds. I have 3 sons (2 are adults one of which is married, and a 15 year old). Why am I telling you this here? Because these are potential deal breakers for people and I don't want to waste your time or mine.

I love music of all kinds, I love art, I love crafts, I enjoy baking, I love my 2 Yorkies, I read dark romance all the time, I like to go on adventures, exploring new places, long road trips on back roads. I am a homebody though. I dont like crowds. I am a jeans a t-shirt/sweatshirt kinda girl, but can clean up for the right occasion. I have always dreamed of a hobby farm with all kinds of mini animals to care for. Maybe someday.

I am hoping to start out online and if it turns out you are the one, I hope we can eventually start a life together.

I need attention. I want someone who is able to talk to me all day. Not constantly necessarily, but throughout the day. I want to know you make me a priority and that talking to me is important to you. I have privacy from 7am to 2:30pm central time. After that I can text only. If I am being ignored or only hearing from you a couple times a day, that won't work for me.

If we decide that we want to go forward, and things between us are good, you will find I am devoted to you, I will happily and gratefully submit to you. I want to do whatever I can to make you happy. I will try my best to be the best sub and partner to you. Your happiness is my happiness, your hurt is my hurt, and I want nothing more than to please you. But I want you to put in the same effort. It can't be one sided.

Please only respond if you feel we could be the right match and you meet most of the criteria on my profile. Like I said, life is short. I need to find my other half. I don't want to waste time on someone who isn't at least close to that.

I hope you are out there and have just been waiting for me like I have been waiting for you.