I’m beginning to realize the difference between seeking, wanting, and needing. I don’t need anything, I want a better future for myself, and I seek meaningful companionship that resonates with my journey.

My life role has developed as a caregiver to an aging family member, soon to take on the same role for another. Before this, my path was unconventional. Over time, I’ve worked on bettering myself, taking small, steady steps. At 36, I continue this work, learning to navigate commitments, my autonomy, and personal growth.

For a long time, I’ve lived with an unfulfilled desire to receive care. Doesn’t everyone, on some level? I’m ready for that now. I know myself; I care for myself. I’ve done the internal work, and I’ve set goals for my future, all while trying to balance the weight of my responsibilities.

I strive to be authentic, kind, and always courteous. Though I may come off a bit boisterous when I warm up, I’ve learned to adjust to the situation. I read a room well—I can be charismatic, polite, or helpful in the background depending on what’s needed. Life has cast me in many roles, and I’m trainable.

Fitness matters to me, but like many, I find myself putting it off while focusing on everything else. I know my body has potential, and I’d love to explore that more, but balance and drive is tricky. I am physically active with good endurance but not at my strongest currently. At 5’4 and 140 lbs., I’d describe myself as doughy cute. I’m fair-skinned with dark hair. I would appreciate a picture sooner if we connect further.

My journey has had its challenges, but I'm serious and practical for what’s ahead , although sometimes caught up in whimsy day dreams. I understand the appeal of partnership now more than ever. While I remain sort of "solo poly" identified. I’ve come to see the value in having someone alongside, sharing the weight.

I imagine love and support that expands emotional and physical capacities. Maybe I’m daydreaming a bit, but I yearn for a connection that feels natural to our selfhood yet mutally transformative. Getting into the throws of kink should be a natural progression in a further correspondence. I am open to getting there while getting to know you. I lean very submissive, but feel free to share any absolutes or limits. I should clarify that I'm not looking for ddgl or pet play. I may be interested in a sweet arrangement. I am open to a lot of discoveries. Let's see where we collide, that's part of the fun, isn't it?

I’m a patient, loyal friend by nature, and my life has shifted in many ways over the past few years. I’m ready to embrace my deepest desires and find a fulfilling connection that passionately supports my growth. I am seeking an online/ldr dynamic with the possibility for irl meets. I am in CST. I seek and am attracted to a person -or couple who is compassionate, older, tall, chubby & in shape who practices good hygiene, with knowledge and experience of kink/poly practices and ideals. I am cis F 4 Anyone over 25 If any of this resonates with you, I’d love to connect