Maybe I'm done second guessing if what I desire is something obtainable or am deserving of. I do seek more. I realize there is a distinction between seeking, wanting, needing. I don't need anything. I want a better future for myself and I seek various realms of companionship parallel with my various desires.

My life role currently is companion caregiver to aging family member, with my next anticipated
role as caregiver to the next aging family member who will be in need. Before fulfilling this role, I was on an unconventional path. At the time I was called into this, I began to better my life small steps at a time.

Now at 36, I slowly but continue on track with the life improvement as I balance my life choices, commitments and my auntomany as a caregiver.

I have lived with an unfulfilled desire to be the receiver of care for a long time. on a deeper level, doesn't everyone.. I'm ready to let the right one in, as in I've been doing the work. I know myself, I care for my self,I set my goals and intentions for the future.

Knowing myself is just saying I'm able to sit with my thoughts, actions and and think about them and think how I can do better and improve. I want to be authentic, kind and courteous always , but I do come off a bit boisterous when warmed up, a trait i've learned to keep in check. I can definitely read a room. I can be charismatic or polite and helpful in the background. I play a lot of roles in life, I'm easily trained. Whatever you need a companion, date, army candy to be. Personality is big for me as it should be for you, I'm definitely trying to be serious in life right now and accomplish some things. But I have done some pretty cool stuff and I don't intend on scaling it back anytime soon. Adventure is key. The way you define that would be a delight for me to read.

I need to care for myself, in a way where it maybe could be a full time job? And wouldn't ya know where I been investing the least amount and of care and time into lately while trying to do " everything else" If I we were going to truly utilize this amazing body in different ways, it would need to some top notch maintenance. It is so unfortunate what stress and poverty can do to hot bodies. But I do know my body has great capabilities and I would really enjoy to continue to discover my abilities. Fitness is important to me but I find myself falling and staying in the wayside way too often at 5'4 and 140# I'm doughy cute, fair with dark hair. Sending your picture sooner is ideal, if you are writing a multiplr of paragraphs in response to me go just ahead and include your picture lol.

My goals and intentions for the future. I'd love to talk about this more as we get comfortable. I'm excited about my path, but it is an unfortunate feeling at times, the weight I have on me. I feel I'm coasting through without a chance to be mindful and take it all in. On my single lady journey, I sure understand the appeal of a partnership at times.. to be a duo.. it's all a lot for person I guess is my thought process there

What can I imagine about you ...

I imagine love support that lifts , influences and creates an incubator of expansions emotional and physical capabilities. To be considered and continuously wound and unraveled matching natural rhythm, though that's a big day dream as I feel sorta chaotic good, I only want to please but sometimes I stumble. Firm, Kind guide to my undiscovered needs. Yeah I need a dom, what have you read and what's stuck with you most bout a being a beyond scenes dom, what's that experienced moment that replays over and over? please indulge me in your desire to carve a relationship/dynamic/arrangement/whatchamacallit from reading my ramblings...

While not to give too much aways as I love the thrill of discovering if the vibe is actually there after I send a few long paragraph messages back and forth. It could make sense if your correspondence goes to my inbox instead of my chat box. Kink stuff Is important and if there's something that is an absolute- please feel free to share. However I'm open to unraveling this if the flow is there,but to weed out incompatibility and give a basic staring point. I am totally submissive by nature.

To sum up, Naturally I am a patient, loving and loyal friend to many. My life has changed quite a bit over the last few years I'm really ready to fulfill my deepest desires in so many realms. One being establishing a close relationship mutually fulfilling that helps and supports me bettering myself. I could only be so lucky. I'm seeking any person,over 25. I'm mostly attracted to chubby in shape people who are tall, whom practice great hygiene. I'm open to couples, but probably only those with experience and references.