First of all this is a huge monologue of information, I just like being up front with what I’m looking for and who I am so we can skip the small talk and get right into seeing if we click. I am not a bot! I assure you this was written by an actual person and I’m fine with sharing sfw pictures to verify. So without any further ado…

Hey! I'm Holly, a 30-year-old BBW Bratty Masochistic Submissive/Service Top with Sadistic tendencies. I’m looking for a Daddy/Master/Mistress for a long term online relationship which I’m open to eventually making IRL.

I've been exploring my gender identity for a while now because even though I don't detest the gender I was born with (female) I still don't believe it's fully who I am. So, for now, I've settled on calling myself a non-conforming feminine Non-Binary fluid person. Basically, I still can connect with my female side and take pride in being a woman (sometimes), but usually, it just isn't me, which is where the fluidity of my non-binary side comes in. Anyway, with all that being said, my pronouns are They/She, I prefer They/them to be used but I'm not going to be offended if you use She/her; been using those pronouns for my whole life anyway. There are some things I won’t do because it gives me dysphoria which could definitely be deal breakers for some people. These things are: Not wearing a bra in public (unless I can wear a hoodie) and wearing dresses/skirts in public (I also only own like 4 dresses). I also don’t use a purse but I’m not sure how that would matter but I figured I’d put it here anyway.

I’ve recently got out of a sexless and kink less relationship (we started off Kinky and then it ended) and I’m really missing that aspect of my life (the kink, I mean). So, I’m looking for an online dom/me to fill that itch. I’m not looking for anything irl right now, just online, but who knows what can happen in the future. It would be ideal, if we really hit it off, to eventually become irl (WAAAAY in the future). Just keep in mind that I wouldn’t be moving to a country that would put being who I am at risk, but I would be fine with visiting. I’m looking for someone that can accommodate the UTC-2:30 / UTC-3:30 time zone. Ideally you would be able to message me multiple times throughout the day, if there’s anything I’ve learned while on here is that I am quite needy on my days where I don’t have anything to do.

So, a bit more about me! I’m fat(5’5”, 213lbs), pansexual & hypersexual. I have blue eyes, my hair is brown and almost goes to my shoulders with the sides & back shaved. My boobs are Bs, but I’m quite skilled at making them seem bigger in pictures. While I am aiming to lose weight, if bigger people aren’t your thing, I totally understand and hope you have a great day. The kink terms I identify with are submissive, brat, sadomasochist, and Little. I’ve yet to find someone who can keep up with my sexual drive. For me, kink & sex are very aligned except for when it comes to my little side. My little side is completely non-sexual usually between the ages of 2-6. I am very shy and ashamed about my little side and I haven’t had great success with caregivers so far, so it would be an asset if you’re able to ‘force’ me into littlespace at times.

I’m also a massive brat, so if you aren’t a tamer, we aren’t going to click! But if you are, you are free to attempt to tame me. It won’t work, but I’m excited to see you try ;D (in all seriousness she is actually super easy to tame temporarily).

Kink wise, I am into orgasm denial/control, overstim (but I’m very bad at doing it myself), breath play, begging, verbal degradation & humiliation, and various other things. I have a spreadsheet of basically every single kink you could have and they’re all rated from Hard limit to enjoyment that you are welcome to look at. It also has a section to put my rules & our soft&hard limits. There’s also a section that you can fill out as well. It will eventually have my virtual closet in it as well.

My experience irl is limited, I was in a dynamic just for the bedroom & another one that eventually turned abusive. Online, however, I’ve had various experiences with short term play. I’m hoping to find my long term play partner, wherever they may be.

In my vanilla life I enjoy playing D&D, survival video games, and reading dark romance. I’m not really huge into anime, however I do enjoy Digimon, Pokemon, and Demon Slayer. I’m also reading through the My Hero Academia manga. For my D&D life, I currently have 3 games a week (Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Saturdays). I’m also currently working on a Digimon homebrew that I’m going to be DMing whenever it’s ready. Most likely on a Monday. I enjoy many different types of TV shows but my favorites are: Law and Order: SVU, Greys Anatomy, Station 19, and basically any show like that. I am a season behind in Greys and two seasons behind in Station 19, I think.

I struggle with a lot of mental issues including but not limited to: BPD, Self-Harm, Suicidal ideation, ADHD, eating issues. and social anxiety. My anxiety is really bad around crowds & with the phone. If you can’t handle talking about these topics or don’t understand mental illness, we are not going to work out.

I’m hoping to find a dom/me who doesn’t mind being called Daddy, but it isn’t a guarantee deal breaker. Ideally, my little side/out of session side would call you Daddy and the in session would call you Master/Sir/Mistress/Ma’am.

I’m looking for someone to help me with my daily tasks, get me on a schedule, and of course, to have some fun with. I need guidance and discipline, I will test you! So, if you have a multitude of patience, that’s for sure an asset.

I would like to use the Binded app with my next dom/me for the journaling aspect is why I rather it over Obedience. I am hoping to gain someone to help me with the next step in my life through nurturing & maybe even a little tough love.

Losing control is something I crave, I am okay with being forced to give up certain aspects of my life including: bathroom use control for urine, outfit selection, undergarment selection, bedtime, wake up time, permission to touch myself sexually, and orgasm control and denial. I am also open to any suggestions or kinks you have in this manner. Ideally, eventually we would be in a 24/7 TPE relationship but I want someone who understands that this takes time and doesn’t try to control my whole life right away. I’m currently working on a virtual closet so my dom knows what clothes I have for outfit selection.

Lastly, my limits include vomit, bathroom stuff, fire, anything that is illegal, petplay/anything animal related, & anything that leaves permanent damage. Penetration & anal are soft limits of mine, penetration just really hurts me & I lost a plug once and now I’m terrified of it happening again. I will be buying a new analog training set sometime in the future though as I do really enjoy it.

A dom I was talking to suggested we use it (penetration) as a punishment & I’m fine with that, so it isn’t like you’ll never see it, it’s just way more of a punishment for me then anything pleasurable.

Eventually I would want to move to discord, however I do also have snap, telegram, and I’m open to using other apps as well.

If you’ve read this far, congratulations, you lived through my monologue of word vomit. I look forward to hearing from you! Here’s a hint, if you want to stand out and have a better chance of getting a reply, don’t just say “hi”, tell me about yourself! Be original!