Hi, this my first post. I am in a career where I cannot risk online dating. I keep to myself as much as possible, and try to make sure I am putting out the energy that I'm unavailable as I don’t want that kind of attention, giving out my number, that sort of thing, in my life right now.
I find myself here as I went through some painful experiences when I was younger. People in my life do not know this about me, which is how I prefer it to be, but I am feeling lately a bit like a fraud, with no outlet. I appreciate but don’t have tattoos, or dye my hair, I am very much girl next door. I’m a runner, petite, light eyes, brunette. My hope is to connect with someone who understands discretion, who understands what pain is and how we can forget it and find release through sex. These are important pre-conditions for my feeling like I can trust you and be attracted to you. I need to not feel alienated, to not feel shamed that I want to please you, and perhaps feel degraded by you, as I’d like to find peace in it. I'm turned on by submitting to you, basically, if I'm attracted to you. I’m not experienced in this lifestyle in my real life at all, but I’m realizing more based on some past interactions that this is what I need, in some small corner of my life that feels safe anyway. Talking to you will be one piece of my life where I am doing something authentically for myself. If we click I will make sure you know how much I like you, and respect you.
I’ll want you to find me attractive, of course, and your appearance matters to me too. I like cocksuredness I suppose, and am a bit stuck up about intelligence :) and so I'd prefer if you are quite intelligent. If you’re more well read than me, or well versed in psychology & quite self-reflective and aware, musical, or emotionally intelligent, any of those qualities would be amazing. I'm quite confident in my outer appearance and take care in how I look, so I'm not saying I mind if you are shallow a bit as well, or if that’s important to you, but I might actually prefer, in this context, being bullied, or criticized. I'd like to feel like it's not too easy to impress you. :)

Please send me a chat if any of this connects with you, I'd also be happy just to chat if you're looking for an escape, and just want to chat about your life or experiences, and what you’re looking for in a relationship. I'm not looking for a relationship, however, I'm curious about the mindset of a dominant man and would chat about anything you'd like to really. That might be all I'm looking for even, a space to express myself freely to a man who has a complimentary energy. Thanks for reading!