First off thank you for taking the time to read my word vomit. Much appreciated. Please yeet yourself into the abyss if you are homophobic, into race play(deepppp side eye), can't hold a conversation without bringing up your dick, whine incessantly as a grown adult, or believe women are "naturally submissive." Carry your misogynist ass on somewhere. If you call women sluts or cum dumpsters upon first meeting them steer clear.

Now that all the weirdos are gone. Hi there. I'm lavender for now. I'm a 32 year old slim build Black woman (that matters) with a smart ass mouth and a lot of opinions. I am shy upon first meeting so give me some grace. I promise you'll like my opinionated ass. I'm knowledgable, witty, funny, introverted af, big cat energy, covid conscious. Please no covid deniers I will physically fight you! And also lecture you about the science & research.

I'm looking for a sort of mentor someone to help me reach my goals and stick to my daily tasks. I suffer from depression and anxiety and pretty sure I've got undiagnosed ADHD also. So everyday life is a struggle a fight if you will. I'm just now getting back into the swing of things. I'm back in school, volunteering, and spending lots of time with my family and doing hobbies. I'm a political girlie and have law school aspirations so any lawyers in the chat HEYYY. I love reading, learning new things, rollerblading, photography, listening to C-Span, and being outside. I love the sun on my skin and large bodies of water even though I can't swim. I love talking about EVERYTHING!! I'm talkative individual and if you'll let me I'll ask a millions questions.

I feel like this dynamic would be a good fit for me because I would be responsible for completing my tasks and I would get rewards which in my mind equals a dopamine hit and I'll be able to stay consistent. I hope this makes sense. I'm looking for someone willing to lead me, and be invested in me accomplishing my goals. I'm capable but struggle with staying consistent. I've been known to isolate and fall off the face of the earth when not feeling my greatest. Trying to get better at that.

Initially, I'm looking for something platonic someone to talk to about my day. Get to know why, and how you came to be the person you currently are. I am NOT monogamous. I am not looking for a relationship. I DO NOT want kids. I DO NOT want to get married. I DO not wish to engage in anything sexual at first. If that's your thing please DON'T! Thanks.

I'm interested in learning more about BDSM. I love anal like LOVE it! I hated it for years and then I did it with someone willing to be gentle and I was addicted. I love grinding with and without clothes. Kissing is growing on me (I dont think I'm that great at it if im being honest). I love being submissive and following directions/orders. I can be a bit of a brat. If that isn't your thing no hard feelings. I'm open to trying and learning but miss me with age play, raceplay, body fluids. I'm sure there are more I can't think of off the top of my head.

Anyway, I'm so proud of myself for getting this out. Hopefully I see some of you Sane, respectful, and kind people in my DM's or something. Enjoy :)

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