This is long AF. Sorry. Haha.

About me

Hiii I'm Holly, I'm looking for a life long partner. I'm in Ontario Canada, and am happy to start online but I hope one of us would relocate one day with a lot of time and effort and meeting first multiple times. I envision having atleast one month long live in trial period before hand.

I'm 33, conventionally pretty, BBW whos full time job is self care. I do work part-time but will likely never be able to work full-time again (fun stories, ask me!) I'm working seriously on dropping the 45lbs I gained during full time work (see! Fun!) But that will still leave me curvylicious. Im working on rebuilding my endurance for a well rounded life. Taking care of my relationships, my apartment, my job, and my community.

I'm big into community supports, child free, and am a leftist. I'm mostly monogamous but am open to triads. I benefit from social assistance and support groups around mental health. That full-time job of self care? Yeah that comes with my schizoaffective (bipolar type) diagnosis. I also have undiagnosed Cptsd. Stress is my enemy, and it loves me like a mosquito loves blood. I walk a thin line managing stress every day, but would love someone to play with those limits with me rather then just suffer on a tightrope by myself.

On that note I am a homebody, people stress me out, so do crowds. I still do things it's just sparingly and with loving encouragement going a long way. Love getting out into nature! Hiking or the beach are my love languages. I also love watching psychological thriller, reading high fantasy smut or the latest self help/psychology books, dancing while cooking, and some video games or board games and card games. ...

YOU

Youre laid back but like to play with strictness for fun. Youre level headed and reliable. You ideally don't have or want children, or your children are 15 years old. You don't smoke cigs or do drugs. I don't mind casual weed use but I have to abstain due to mental health issues. 30-45 ish years old and able to work within an East coast north american timeline.

What I want from a dynamic - summary - DaddyDom/SoftDom/submissive/little

On days I'm on the top of my game I love a challenging TPE approach, on my bad days, a caring accepting daddy who will be lenient in my goals and tasks for the day. At this point in my life it's pretty 50/50 of each of those days. I work two days a week which leaves me pretty useless for the rest of the day and have 2 days where I rest and don't do much, focusing instead on broading my window of tolerance in a playful way. Then 3 days where I'm not working but have tasks and goals set to accomplish like a real adult!

I love to dream about high protocol TPE stay at home wife stuff, but not sure I'll ever be able to live up to it. If you're willing to put in the work to try, so am I, but it will be a long slow road.

As for my "little" side, I am not really sexual when little. I do have a high sex drive in general, but switch over to a subby mindset pretty quickly. Also as a little, I am not really into diapers, they're a soft limit. I would be open to discussing it as a forced punishment thing but that's it.

Closing notes-

I don't ghost and expect the same courtesy. We are all adults, let's practice being respectful to one another.

I can be a little needy with some abandonment issues, but try to focus on creating long lasting relationships and am willing to try and bite the bullet on that to the best of my ability.

I expect us to be compatible on most levels, not just kink. We should click as friends and partners first, I take my kink very seriously, but at the end of the day we are equals and that respect should always be there.

Pleaaassseee reply with thought. Not just hello. Let me know your ideals, expectations, desire, limits, needs. All that stuff. Flex that communication skill for me! I value it highly, show it off!