Im 42yo man from tel aviv. 12 years ago i had my first ceremony, that changed my life forever- one day after i found big love, for the first time in my life. It opened my channels! And cleaned my aura. 2 years after I had the second ceremony- this one was disaster! I came spontaneously, without preparing, i had beefburger 3 hours before lol!!! This one was a mess::: i felt death, saw death, 6 hours of horrible disaster. One month after i started to have anxiety issues that kept me going for the one year. Now, i have new call. 10 years after the trauma, im about to be dad, facing new era, and i have old issues like constant weed smoking, and writers block (its my job lol!). I know that aya will help clean me… but im so afraid… there is ceremony every 2 weeks in my city. How can i overcome fear and just do it? Letting the 3rd time to be significant as the first? Or maybe i should quit it, and not touch again what took me through suffering… Thank u! For advices… peace and love