I kind of ended up on this sub Reddit, due to me thinking if I have avoidant attachment issues. Me and my friend were talking about my recent relationship and how I’ve become these two years of me slowly turning into a adult I am 18M she asked if I have avoidant attachment disorder. I’ve read a little about avoidant attachment disorder and how they can develop and a-lot of symptoms are exactly like mine. As growing up my mother had move with her father and was overprotective of me doing anything. I get it she was scared of anything happening to me, but as I grew up I started going through some depression and just in need of comfort. My family went to a lot of countries and we struggled a little bit which got to me. By age of 12-13 I tried talking to my mother about how I am feeling stressed and my recent feelings and said I could be suffering through a little bit of depression. She and my uncle laughed it off and said you’re fine. I tried multiple times again by age of 14-15 I was continuously ignored by my family me letting out my emotions were used against me. If I was to tell my mother that I was hanging out with a girl she would that against me saying things like Im not being a good son cause of that girl. Things like how I am a bad sim and she had hoped I would die in a car crash or that she hopes all my friends betray me and hurt me. The only time I was comforted by my family when I tried to move out…

This still goes on just a little bit. But my mom tries to understand my feelings but it’s to late now I’ve suppressed my feeling for so long to the point it’s weird even talking about my feelings or how I feel to anyone including my partner. I’ve tried talking to my friends and other family members but all I ever got was “Nah you’re fine”

I was dating this girl and she tried her hardest to help me let my feelings out which was going ok at first but then I messed it up by dropping my emotional dump on her and hurt her and now we talk like strangers. I am slowly working on myself.

So am do I have avoidant attachment issues? Do I go to someone and get myself checked out?