Mixed with the constant arguments and emotional/ physical incompatibility, I decided to end a six year relationship. Now I’m alone most of the time and it’s a bittersweet feeling. My inner-avoidant is loving all the extra time I’m getting by myself but I also miss spending my life with someone else and feeling secure romantically. Maybe I’m selfishly longing to not be alone. Maybe I actually regret not working things out with her. I honestly don’t know and my lack of understanding for my feelings is frustrating. Overall, I think I’m better off being single for now and I’ve already hurt my ex enough so I don’t think she’s interested in being friends. It’s a shame because I really care about her as a person, I just didn’t want a relationship with her anymore.