If it were that easy, then I wouldn’t be here, wouldn’t I? I don’t know yet whether I have social anxiety, AvPD, both, or neither. But I know people who have been diagnosed with social anxiety. People who claim they know how it feels despite being extroverted, confident, well-liked, and having rich social lives. And even they give me the “just get over it, it’s not hard” talk. “You just have to have the courage to talk to people.”

I want to tell them to just go fuck themselves. I bet they have never felt even a percentage of the way I feel about myself in the entirety of their fucking lives. I fucking WISH I could be them. I wish I could fucking love myself. I wish that I didn’t want to be dead because of whatever the fuck is in my head.