I would think the hyperactive side of me would love bouncing around at concerts, but im honestly not a huge fan. ive accepted that i HAVE to wear earplugs at any event with loudness, but the sensory experience of that isnt the best either.

one time i followed my friends into the pit. big mistake! got the wind knocked outta me, had a panic attack, and hid in the bathroom for the rest of the show

i cant help but feel that i missed out in college bc i want to make and play music and make connections but everyone in the scene at my college almost exclusively played packed house shows (i assume thats how any mildly alt/underground scene is) i feel disconnected from counterculture in general bc of my aversion to going to crowded or small places. people who would be branded by society as "weirdos" can enjoy themselves and befriend likeminded people; i cant even do that!!!

i have had some good concert experiences for sure (weed helps lol), but ive left most feeling either sad or dissappointed.

as you can probably see, i love talking about myself haha. WHAT ABOUT YOUU????

thx for looking at this post and much love ❤️