I'm autistic but autistic people don't like me. I'm a lesbian, but lesbians REALLY don't like me. I'm too sensitive to even enjoy engaging with people on Reddit. I comment and I get a lot of downvotes and I have no idea what I did. And if I ask what I did I get downvoted more without any explanation. I can't make friends anymore. People treat me like I'm jnsufferable. I'm really nice most of the time. I have caring just built into me, and I thought that was how everyone was, but that's not the case at all. People that are supposed to be the same as me, people who are part of the communities I'm a part of can't stand me and I don't ever know why. I've never known why.

The only people who were always wonderful to me were addicts. I'm sober, I can't be around addicts anymore. I was so lonely I tried to go back to see some of my old friends yesterday and so many of them have died. They were all lonely and too sensitive, too. They were born with nerve endings outside of their body, like me. We all felt more than we were supposed to, and felt it all too deeply.

Reddit is awful, but I keep coming back on this site because I'm so isolated. I'll die too if I start hanging around my people again. But I can't connect with anyone else.The people I did connect with are dead.

I think my dead friends are happier than I am.