Nsfw because I'm upset. I just have to rage/adrenaline type for a bit, cause god damn i am shaking, but why even?? It's so stupid. I had to go to a shop I've been to many times before, always had great experiences. But because i had to to by car now (i got my license 2 months ago) i am shaking, heart pounding, face flushing, voice cuivering. And for what?!?! It's so stupid! I hate it so much. It makes me feel like shit physically, mentally, and i look so stupid! I'm sorry, but god damn i hate this. I did the fucking breathing, and mantras and shit and it did as good as nothing. Okay maybe i calmed down a tiny bit, but as soon as soon as I'd take another step to leaving or going inside it'd all flare up again.

Now that I'm here anyways, does anyone have any actually helpful tips that will stop my body from freaking out so much in the moment.