I have always felt alone on this opinion, and I feel like it has a lot to do with being autistic. I don't understand society at all. But not only do I not understand, but I never felt like I belong, mostly cause I don't understand and I've never fit in. I've never had friends, my own family never liked me, teachers. I don't like doing "normal" things. I want to play like a child all the time, preferably in the forest surrounded by all kinds of other animals. I don't want to be human and be forced to live like one just cause I have a human body...I HATE IT!!! Am I alone in this? It depresses me that I'm forced to or obligated to be a part of human society just because I was born one. I don't care how rediculous anyone thinks this sounds, this is how I feel and how I always felt. I struggle to live in this world, holding a job (when I can find one) is super difficult. I see all the corruption, the manipulation and competition between people, I don't know how to act around people, it's always a guessing game and it's exhausting combined with everything else that goes into being human.