• Self-Diagnosed Aspergers, 3 years ago, during covid.
• Single. No kids. Renting a tiny home. Independent, not really by choice.
• Recently seeking help for depression (related to long history of inconsistent, unsatisfactory work).
• Considering going on disability services.
• Minor Cerebral Palsy - Affects fine motor skills, coordination, balance... limits career options.
• Aspergers - difficulty reading between the lines, understanding non-verbal communication, often misunderstood.
• Despite getting a University degree - Work consists of seasonal, manual labour jobs. Never been fired. Often quit because of lack advancement potential, struggling with entry level, not progressing.
• Only experienced one paid vacation in my entire career, despite working for over 20 years.
• Despite the CP - my main hobbies and sources stress relief are usually running and cycling... which I refuse to give-up, even though they make me even more tired, and leads to more struggles at work. A serious negative cycle.
• Tired, mentally and physically, and my give-a-shit-meter is always empty.
• Family is close-ish, and aware of my situation, supportive to a certain extent.

I recently explained my concerns to a psychologist over one hour discussion, during which my concerns were validated. She then referred me to a psychiatrist, which occurred earlier this week, which was a brief 20 minute Zoom consultation. The psychiatrist (correctly) assessed my independence, but seriously overlooked how both my CP and ASP lead to serious depression. He did not recommend pursuing the disability route, after being able to work for the last 20 years. Just recommended therapy and possibly starting anti-depressants. (I am generally not depressed outside work). I don't feel like anti-depressants will help with things like being able to communicate with coworkers. It feels like they would be a band-aid solution.

The problem is I can absolutely work. Working without getting depressed, is a whole other story, and that seems to be impossible at this point. I am exhausted, and I don't know what to, and I don't have a very rosy long term outlook if things persist the way they are. I'm not looking the disability option as a long-term solution. It would be a way to get my mental health back, without having to worry about earning a paycheque by resorting to desperation grunt work, that is available because the last guy quit. Tired of working shit jobs...

Need advice for how to proceed... apply for disability despite the psychiatrist's assessment?!

I feel so fucking alone in this situation. :(

Edit: Located in semi-rural Canada, if that is relevant.