Ask me about it I typed it out and then went to find the thing I was thinking about and when I came back the screen refreshed. I don’t feel like retyping. But I listen more with curiosity then I do with shock or sadness I don’t listen with the intent to comfort!

“My son never had sleeping problems. But after spending an evening in the daycare, he refuses to sleep with the lights out anymore! He just cries and cries. And then when I do let him keep the lights on, he wets the bed!” FNAF Security Breach

But this child must have gone through horrorible stuff the parents don’t even know either! Anytime I think of fnaf I think of this! Today I had to remind myself it wasn’t real like honestly I began to forget and can feel the tears building up I don’t cry often though I usually just feel it and then I don’t cry. It might be because they’re a child and not close or above my age. I might also be desensitized.

I guess I’m retyping this stuff I used to be very self-centered and took things personally I care about myself and my own feelings. I’m better now but I still get thoughts like this person doesn’t want to be my friend why do they take so long? Stuff like that I remind myself what happened in the past and I silence those thoughts or at least I don’t use them to personally attack any of my friends. But I feel like I’m just stuffing it in a jar it’s no where near full but I do think I’m just stuffing it down I don’t know how to take it out I don’t want to be constantly negative or constantly asking for validation but I don’t want to blow up one day for not expressing my feelings but when I did let them out and talk about them I pushed friends away at lest one of them came back but I don’t think they’d put up with it a second time. Damn what that child must have gone though!