Ive never posted before and can barely think straight so forgive me…have a 1 year old boy with my current gf who lives with me and two daughters from a marriage, the oldest(5) has level 2 ASD and possibly ADHD. She was diagnosed around 2, so things have always been different and kind of hard, but right now it’s really a struggle. For the past few months she has seemed very unhappy when I have her(2-3 times a week). She is so quick to become upset and begin whining( a loud piercing “eeeeee” )Sometimes I’m not even sure why. She also seems so much more prone to indulge in less than preferred behavior, too many to notate but I’m sure you could imagine. Her stim of choice is also beating on anything that makes a loud noise. In the past I’ve been able to tolerate it but I really can’t anymore. We’re trying to replace it with therapy putty but with little success. Right now there’s just rarely a peaceful moment with her it seems. She’s very active and loves being outside but of course it’s very cold now so that’s hard. She has an iPad, trampoline and many other sensory toys. I’ve recently gotten off of anxiety medication, which may be effecting me but I’m really starting to hate my life. I try really hard I’m struggling, my relationship is struggling and my child seems to be struggling and often asks for her mother which sucks too. The only time she seems to be happy here is with an iPad on max volume, something to beat on it with and a cup in her mouth. I want the best for her so I try to provide a little more structure than I imagine her mother does but this is hard. I find myself yelling a lot more, which I hate…On top of that, both girls are still potty training. Idk anymore..