I (F20) am fairly out to everyone in my life. I grew up a Jehovah witness ,but my family got shunned however a lot of them still have those views and are pretty homophobic. Everyone that is IN my life for real know that I have a girlfriend excluding people like my dad, step mom, and grandparents. My grandma on my mom's side I call her nana. I went to visit her in January from out of state I usually call her when I get off the plane ,but this time I didn't get a chance to because I was being sexually harassed on the plane so I just went home and went to sleep to forget about everything. I had called her the next morning. And I call her every week when I know she's awake ,but these times when I called her she was being weird and I stopped calling for 2 weeks because I found out that she was appearently mad at me because I didn't call her as soon as I got off the plane. She told my mom I am disrespectful and basically a disappointment so that was fun. Anyways we kinda started talking again because idk my mom wants us to? But today......

My mom has been mentioning that I'm hanging out with my "friend" alot and my nana said what friend? Like friend or girlfriend? And she said girlfriend. She was still confused so she said like my (sisters name)? Because my sister is also a lesbian and she said YES. And she said wow so that's how you raise your kids..... My mom told me this story and now I've just been crying 24/7 because my whole life only thing I did was want people, MY FAMILY to love me so I did things I didn't even want to do and now I find someone who loves me flaws and all and I'm getting hated for it?! That shit hurts man fr.

Me and my family don't really have the loving relationship so I am very distant to everyone emotions wise ,but I don't want anyone to see me like this....I'm a mess.