I go above and beyond for my friends and partners and I never get reciprocated. I get betrayed, ghosted, and gossiped about. I was recently sexually assaulted and most of my “friends” remained neutral and 2 of them took his side (which didn't surprise me bc they protect the pedophiles in their family). I feel betrayed but also lucky that I'm not going into 2025 with flaky friends. 2 of my real friends got closer to me and want to hang out more now so I'm taking that as a win. My autism makes it so hard for me to realize when I'm being taken advantage of but when traumatic and life-changing stuff like this happens people show their true colors and become easy to read. I'm going to make friends based on similar values/morals and compatibility instead of my fear of being lonely.