Can someone help me? Is this like a bad reason to ghost? Is there a way I can feel less tired and dread the stupid loop around NT’s do when you reject them?

Usually it’s when I have repeated, explained myself or set a boundary. I get exhausted or saying the same shit over and over. It’s exhausting it genuinely makes me psychically tired I already am exhausted by NT people. The way they react to being told NO is so stupid, no doesn’t mean keep trying to playfully push, it means fuck off!!

I know I am easily tricked or manipulated I was my entire childhood and younger 20’s , through a lot of therapy and self reflection I’ve been able to get some back bone and boundaries. I can usually pinpoint obvious manipulation or “cutesy” pushing of my boundaries. Since I recently entered the dating scene, I have found myself ghosting a lot of people because I’m tired of explaining or rejecting for the same fucking thing.

One thing I have repeatedly told people for a first date, “You’re not coming to my house.” to the point it’s on my profile. It’s almost the first thing I say when people suggest a date or hint wanting to come over, I don’t even have friends over. (I am protective of my home as a deeply traumatized person. My home is my safe spot no one will ruin that)

I’ve ghosted people a day before a date because they tried to sneak in coming to my house. I’m over it, I’m exhausted saying over and over the same thing. It’s like a shooting pain behind my god damn eye whenever they start “playful” / “cutesy” pushing of it too. I said fucking no.