Hi! I'm very freshly diagnosed with ASD. Lately i've been having this particular thought and i dont fully flesh it out or articulate it in a accurate way. I hate to admit this but i was very ashamed when i recived my diagnosis. For many different and complicated reasons. (i dont mean to upset anybody by saying that i'm just sharing my personal feelings about my own diagnosis)

I'm not very intelligent or exceptionally good at anthing. I'm an especially bad student. I was never interested in school or did good at it. I put in very little effort cause i was just always trying to keep my head above the water. I was constantly drowning no matter how hard i tried. i did do pretty good in the subjects i was interested in like history and philosophy. I was got mediocre grades.

The more research i do about ASD the more i read about how a lot of people belive that we are some supernerds who are great at math or somthing stupid like that. I was ashamed to get diagnosed because i'm not smart. I have the type of ASD that makes me very depressed and makes people dislike me for no reason at all.

I'm sorry if this post upset anyone i know its also very badly articulated and i probably have many typos im sorry