Title mostly.

Does anyone else struggle with being in public even when you're enjoying yourself/with safe people?

I struggle so much with being perceived. It's like I can't turn off my brain. It just runs. Tells me I don't belong, that something about me is wrong. It's a constant stream of self judgements and shame. About appearance, weight, awkwardness and poor social skills. I feel like I don't belong. Like I don't have a right to exist.

I've been in therapy long enough to know none of it matters nor is true, but in that moment it gets to be nearly impossible to silence or challenge the inner critic...

Anyone else struggle with this?