I’m a gnc woman, mostly androgynous/masc presenting. A few years ago I had a spell where I was really in distress over my sudden awareness of societal roles/norms, I felt like I had to stick to them while I very much did not relate to them, and for I while I felt like something was wrong with me. Since then, I’ve become a lot more comfortable with myself and I feel pretty happy with where I am. I’m rather thankful for the different perspective of gender roles that I have; if I was NT I might’ve never figured out what was wrong, or even known that something was off.

I don’t see very many gnc women though, and I’m starting to doubt myself a bit again. Whenever something is gendered and all feedback is agreeing with it, I feel somewhat disconnected. It started out with small things, like a video of someone doing some silly or dumb thing where everyone will say “boys will be boys” and agree that it’s such a guy thing to do, when it’s either something that I have done or something that I’d wish I had been a part of. I wouldn’t be posting this if that was all it is, but after a while I started to doubt my own basic instincts and principals, like “is it odd that I love fighting and feeling physically protective?” Logically I know nothing’s wrong with me, but I still feel a little alienated and wanted to know if anyone has a similar experience. I know I’m not trans, I’ve put some thought and introspection into it and I feel like a woman, just a woman by my own definition