I actually have no idea how on earth I'm ever supposed to be a "functional person". The only thing I want or care about at all for myself is I don't want to be a burden to others forever, but I just can't do anything. I've tried to get a job and the paperwork was terrifying, then when I was supposed to do a trial run at the job, I started vomiting so badly I had to leave. I wish I could at least have confirmation that I have a real disability and I'm not just neurotypical but useless, but I've tried so hard to seek an assessment and the only thing that seemed to have any chance of working out has been blocked, too, now. I feel so hopeless.